Hello, I am new to this forum and I have been dealing with PTSD for over 2 years now.
I am a civilian. I did have a lot of trauma in my early life and was victimized several times, but honestly thought I had moved beyond it all and was headed in a good direction finally. I had been in therapy for many years before I was diagnosed and only recently has my therapist began to approach the word PTSD after slowly approaching the word trauma and letting that sink in with me. Honestly, I was and still am completely blindsided but am glad to know that I am not going crazy and that there is a very real reason for the ugly person I became and still sometimes am.
Today, I am still reeling from it and finding it hard to fight. I am reading more and more about it and hearing interviews from people with it. Although our circumstances are very different, I find myself constantly crying in relief to hear others say that I am not alone. It's scary and surreal to hear others describe the mental state exactly as I have been enduring. Luckily, I do have a friend who served and has PTSD. She has been a great comfort and very understanding.
Guess I am here because I am still so new to this concept and find it frightening. Been a bad week for me because I finally opened up to some friends who had disappeared about what had happened. It was a relief for me to apologize for anything I might have done wrong, explain what happened to them and to hear why they had disappeared from my life. Yeah, I know... They weren't there and supportive when they should have been, but I can't really blame them either. Needless to say, it has released a lot of emotions and caused some triggers to set off.
I am a civilian. I did have a lot of trauma in my early life and was victimized several times, but honestly thought I had moved beyond it all and was headed in a good direction finally. I had been in therapy for many years before I was diagnosed and only recently has my therapist began to approach the word PTSD after slowly approaching the word trauma and letting that sink in with me. Honestly, I was and still am completely blindsided but am glad to know that I am not going crazy and that there is a very real reason for the ugly person I became and still sometimes am.
Today, I am still reeling from it and finding it hard to fight. I am reading more and more about it and hearing interviews from people with it. Although our circumstances are very different, I find myself constantly crying in relief to hear others say that I am not alone. It's scary and surreal to hear others describe the mental state exactly as I have been enduring. Luckily, I do have a friend who served and has PTSD. She has been a great comfort and very understanding.
Guess I am here because I am still so new to this concept and find it frightening. Been a bad week for me because I finally opened up to some friends who had disappeared about what had happened. It was a relief for me to apologize for anything I might have done wrong, explain what happened to them and to hear why they had disappeared from my life. Yeah, I know... They weren't there and supportive when they should have been, but I can't really blame them either. Needless to say, it has released a lot of emotions and caused some triggers to set off.
