Sufferer Hello. I'm New Here, And I Have Complex Ptsd.

[FabulousEnding]

After 29 years of extensive trauma of all kinds, I cracked one day and ended up in the hospital... twice. But it ended up being incredibly good for me. I'm on Zoloft 100mg, Buspar 20mg and Risperdal 0.25mg. For the last 14 years, my body was on such bad overdrive that I developed food allergies to caffeine, sugar, fruit, gluten, dairy, soda, and juice. I could eat practically nothing because I was genuinely intolerant. Now after being on zoloft for 9 months, I lost my sugar, fruit, juice and soda intolerance. Then the buspirone was added and I lost my lactose intolerance, and caffeine sensitivity.. Next, the Risperdal was included and I lost my gluten intolerance and got an insane caffeine tolerance. I now can eat whatever the heck I want and it's weird. lol

I'm starting school in the fall after a huge history of dropping out non-stop because of anxiety, and I'm desperately trying to find a dog I can train as a service dog. I'm in treatment for PTSD weekly with a therapist, monthly with a psychiatrist and every few months with a general practitioner. I work really really really hard at it and do everything my doctors tell me to do. I don't have access to any therapy groups though, which sucks. I definitely took full advantage of them and went to every single group when I was in the hospital the second time.

I can't work because of my PTSD. My parents are both loaded but refuse to help me because they don't give a crap, even though they made me this way. I'm desperately hoping disability goes through! I sure have enough medical evidence to support that I'm barely functional. I've been diagnosed by 2 hospitals, 3 psych clinics, and about 10 psychiatrists. My poor boyfriend takes care of me, finances and around the house.

It's nice to see there is a whole community of people who understand what it's like to go through this.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Hi and welcome!

I am interested in talking with you more about your food issues.... I have recently developed some crazy food intolerances and allergies. I am gluten intolerant, likely corn intolerant, and yeast intolerant as well. Oh yeah, with a pepper allergy to boot! I'm not sure what the line is between intolerance and allergy, but gluten makes me ache all over (muscle pain), while corn and yeast kill my skin, and pepper makes me want to rip my skin off. So now I'm down to no wheat products, no corn products, and as for the yeast sensitivity, that means no aged foods---no condiments as they ALL have vinegar, no aged cheeses (processed ones only), and no alcohol. I laugh at the alcohol thing because now I can actually say "YES, I AM allergic to alcohol!" instead of looking like the dork who refuses to have fun....but I digress. And yes, no pepper, which may seem like its an easy thing to eliminate, but its not as paprika and turmeric are used as colorants in EVERYTHING.

Again, welcome to the forum!

I'm not sure how it is related to my PTSD, if at all. My trauma was at age 4, my diagnosis not until my late 20's and here I am, 5 1/2 years later. I really don't have much hope for the food issues going away, as I know for sure that I have had them since I was a teenager----lets just say that I've always had bad acne issues which is such an embarrassment as an adult! And yeah, once you eliminate the allergens from your diet, your body reacts 10x worse if you get an unexpected dose. So that's where I'm at right now, trying to detox yet again. Just so annoyed that doctors never mentioned food being a source of my bad skin issues---they all just wanted to put me on birth control b/c they thought that would help, or throw topical skin prescription creams my way. Yeah, modern medicine is great at throwing band-aids at you without consideration for fixing the source of the issue. Enough of my rant though lol

 

[FabulousEnding]

Oh yea I was like that too... bad adult acne. I've made my doctors all focus on getting my adrenaline rush stabilized so I don't have to feel it. When it comes back I get suicidal because it's so freaking painful. I HATE feeling that hyped up more than anything. When they give me new meds to sedate me I'm like aaaahhhhh thank you I love you, doctor. lol

I'm actually drinking hard cider in the middle of the day right now. LOL. My brain finally processed some of the memories last night that I was apparently emotionally reacting to all day but didn't remember, so now it's like... cool, now room for memories you don't even know happened! My heart rate is like bam bam bam bam bam.... so I'm like *sip* *sip* *sip* ah, I love you alcohol. It calms my nerves down when I get anxious from not knowing what my brain is going to force me to see next. I thought mine was lifelong too but it wasn't. I mean, you never know but also acceptance is good just in case it doesn't ever reverse.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

My PTSD is getting better overall, but I do have a few things that are getting worse, and this is one of them. I am the only one in my family that I know of who has such sensitivities. I had a few other symptoms get worse after processing....mainly my sudden onset migraines (actually, this is a new symptom), and my hypervigilance is a lot worse too. It sucks, but overall I am better, so I'll take it!

 

[Lucycat]

Hi and welcome. I have complex PTSD too.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Just want to say welcome and a gentle reminder that alcohol is not an approved treatment for any mental illnesses.

 

[intothelight]

@FabulousEnding

Welcome to the forum! :)

Sounds like you are getting the help you need and I hope this forum is a good resource as you work on your own healing. @KwanYingirl made a good point about using alcohol especially in combination with psycho-pharmaceuticals. There are other ways to manage anxiety and perhaps even adjusting your current medication may be an option.