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[Lw715]

Hi . I'm new here. I just found this place. I was attacked and then raped by someone I was involved with four years ago. I got out alive and he went to jail but managed to only get a year and time served...he got out on parole. Proceeded to meet another girl online...jumped parole to arkansas. I tried to warn her he was dangerous but ..He shot a killed her execution style within two days of my contact....

I was supposed to testify at the trial last year but then he pleaded guilty and took life in prison two days before trial. I thought I was holding up pretty well but all of sudden I am a mess...constant flashbacks, vivid nightmares when I'm awake and asleep and depression has set in pretty bad...my therapist said my ptsd went unchecked for too long. I'm just lost and looking for help and answers...

 

[Changing4Best]

WOW, thanks for sharing your story. What a story it is too. I can't say I know how you feel, as my story is quite different and yet is has similarities. I did not report my rape though, but a woman did report having been battered by him and he went to prison for that, so I am relieved that justice was done.

I think you are at least given a bit of reprieve, as your attacker rapist in is prison, looks like for good. Mine will get out as his sentience was not for life. So I moved hundreds of miles away from where he would probably end up, the same town as before his sentence. I pray he does not know where I am even so.

I'm glad you are in therapy, therapy has helped me a lot.

 

[Rebel Girl]

I'm very glad you came here and hope you get all the support you need. The most important thing is you are taking care of yourself.

 

[illusionist]

Welcome...hope you find your inner peace here.

 

[intothelight]

@Lw715 Welcome to the forum.

I think you were very brave for reaching out and it is too bad that our judicial system can fail so badly with violent offenders. My ex is serving a life sentence and it took me a long time to learn to feel safe and to find peace. I hope you find the support here helpful and that you find your own peace soon.

 

[FindingMyself88]

So glad you found us here and have a therapist to help you work through this. Can I say you are SO brave? Really. I didn't have the courage to report my rapist because courts are another trigger for me from childhood abuse. I am glad the jerk is in prison though. Gentle hugs if you wish, hope you find this community as safe and healing as I have. We all have different stories, but are caring and supportive of each other.

 

[Lw715]

Thank you all for such a warm welcome...I just feel so scared ...its all come on too much too fast.

 

[illusionist]

Take a breath...slow down...break it up, but by bit, ....you will get where you want to be.