Hi I'm glad I stumbled upon this site. Been through alot most of my life. I had a rough childhood and have been battling depression for the past five years of my life. I have PTSD because in some of the very recent years I've had dormant memories re-surface(voices that wake me up at night IE my name being called by someone I once knew or my brother). I struggled over two years ago trying to cope with the rising tension in the house. I'm 21 now, this all started happenning not long a couple years after I began highschool. After awhile highschool just became a reason to get out of the house. At around 18 struggling even more with school work due to the fact that I was more focused on dealing with things at home (I was confused back then) I dropped out and left. I drifted across half of the country for about two + years getting more and more deeply involved in musical related activities. I tried to start a band once but everybody just ended up turning to the dope, that wasn't long before I began my travels. I started playing drums at about 16 1/2 got really good at that for a few years. Took piano lessons when I was ten and as far as string instruments go I started playing bass about a year after I began playing drums (I was even dabbling with guitar too). About a year ago I began to play chords well and sing to it off the top of my head. Its only in the past half year that I began to play jazz-like stuff on the guitar(I play guitar practically every day of every hour).
As far as my life goes these days Im doing very well for myself. I'm on the Disability program of which I hate admitting to alot of people because nobody seems to understand where I've come from and what I've been through. Its tough talking to people due to the fact that I feel like someone thinks I'm some kind of vampire, never mind the fact that I'm pretty much an all around honest man(and I love talking to others). Plus I work hard at my music...My heroes are Django Reinhardt and Joe Satriani, you can't get any better inspiration. Its practically my religion, kinda like how alot of people turn to Christianity...
Thank you to whoever has made this forum. This helps alot...I'll be coming back if the people here are nice. Thx :)
As far as my life goes these days Im doing very well for myself. I'm on the Disability program of which I hate admitting to alot of people because nobody seems to understand where I've come from and what I've been through. Its tough talking to people due to the fact that I feel like someone thinks I'm some kind of vampire, never mind the fact that I'm pretty much an all around honest man(and I love talking to others). Plus I work hard at my music...My heroes are Django Reinhardt and Joe Satriani, you can't get any better inspiration. Its practically my religion, kinda like how alot of people turn to Christianity...
Thank you to whoever has made this forum. This helps alot...I'll be coming back if the people here are nice. Thx :)
