This is my first day on the forum. I wanted to introduce myself, hoping I'm in the right place. I'd suffered from abuse as a child, physical, mental, emotional, and neglect. First boyfriend abused me in every way imaginable, always left feeling that it was my fault. I'm 39 and can't run to try to escape anymore. Saw a therapist last year but I was still in denial about being a victim and wanted to try one last time to receive love from my family. I can barely hold a job, hate where I live, I'm single, and my health is not so great. I'm finishing up a book about abuse, ironically enough and need to have a happy ending to it so that is why I'm here.