SGT.Sunshine.
Silver Member
I am new to this forum stuff so please bear with me.
I served in the U.S. active duty Army, combat arms, as a 19K, from jan 2003- Dec 2009.
From late 2006 on-ward I never saw another tank and we trained and conducted all truck mounted and dismounted ops.
I have been in 2ID, 4ID, 1CAV. With many different battalions within those divisions.
Mainly Ft.Hood. My last unit was 2/7CAV.
I served on back and forth rotations in and out of Iraq from start to finish.
Until recently I would down play my level of combat exp. I would tell my self, oh theres people who have done and seen more so I should just ignore these things that over the last 2 years have been creeping up, and just drive on. Well drive on has become drive over the cliff. I decided the other day to stop blaming every one else for the strange and destructive behavior I have been conducting, and get help.
After finally walking into a vet center I opened up a bit, I spoke about maybe a third of each deployment, the reaction of the counseler, aswell as actually hearing it all, made me realize just how much I have put my-self through while serving, infact it was allways so intense that I had forgotten alot of crazy incedents. The denial that something was wrong has over powered me for a long time, causing destruction to my life. The signs have allways been there, until now I refused to be honest with my-self.
Now I am just seeking a support network, as learning I am not alone seems to enable me to take steps in the right direction.
I served in the U.S. active duty Army, combat arms, as a 19K, from jan 2003- Dec 2009.
From late 2006 on-ward I never saw another tank and we trained and conducted all truck mounted and dismounted ops.
I have been in 2ID, 4ID, 1CAV. With many different battalions within those divisions.
Mainly Ft.Hood. My last unit was 2/7CAV.
I served on back and forth rotations in and out of Iraq from start to finish.
Until recently I would down play my level of combat exp. I would tell my self, oh theres people who have done and seen more so I should just ignore these things that over the last 2 years have been creeping up, and just drive on. Well drive on has become drive over the cliff. I decided the other day to stop blaming every one else for the strange and destructive behavior I have been conducting, and get help.
After finally walking into a vet center I opened up a bit, I spoke about maybe a third of each deployment, the reaction of the counseler, aswell as actually hearing it all, made me realize just how much I have put my-self through while serving, infact it was allways so intense that I had forgotten alot of crazy incedents. The denial that something was wrong has over powered me for a long time, causing destruction to my life. The signs have allways been there, until now I refused to be honest with my-self.
Now I am just seeking a support network, as learning I am not alone seems to enable me to take steps in the right direction.
