Welcome Iceman...you are in the right place. I can't make you believe me but I can tell you that your experience is shared by thousands of others. You just have to trust yourself and that what you are dealing with is justified. Then throw the second guessing your right to have trauma and the concept of what is a justified reason in a closet and lock the door. Focus on you and healing, gaining as many coping skills as you can. You want many tools ready for different situations. Trust me, even after you lock that closet, the doubt will sneek out to mess with you but you have to slam the door on it again, each time. Most the time you are the only one creating the doubt so stop it. If someone else is doing it ignore them as complete imbeciles.
This place is somewhat like a 24/7 group therapy where you can recapture the camraderie you miss and gain advantage from what others have done to deal with the beast, to include what we have done wrong.
Peace
