Sufferer Help

[theotherside]

I'm new here. I'm the worst I've ever been. Major anxiety, Anger, Insomnia, crying, isolation, Hopeless about the future, scared of people, scared of life, overwhelmed, ashamed, guilty, holding my family back from life, cant go anywhere alone, zoning out...just horrible life. I call it hell hole I have been diagnosed with PTSD....
What kinds of therapy are the best in your experience to help life become more livable? I want to get better

 

[Parrothead Michael]

I am new here as well and this is the first reply I have ever written. You have my most heartfelt good thoughts and prayers that you will find some relief from what you are experiencing. I have felt all of the same things you have described and I know how scary it can be. A friend and good human being exposed transcendental meditation to me and I have been able to learn it in a tough time and even today it has made a difference for the better. I have tried to include the website so you can see it, but this site won't let me. Please google transcendental meditation.

Please do something good for yourself today and try your best to take care of yourself. I hope this will help you.

Be well.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@theotherside

I've hit the rock bottom a few times, and I was suicidal, a dozen suicide attempts in about a year... I lived in what to me seemed like a hopeless situation, a complete hell. I know how you feel.

I haven't been in theraphy much, due to how bad mental health institutions are in croatia. The rule here is, add diazepham for a while, dump them out in the open afterwards... Know some people who been addicted to diazepham... Actually on diazepham for last 2 days, and strong sleepers, as I need sleep for those few days... Might fall asleep while writing this...

Well, a while ago, when I joined this site, I was already bouncing away from that rock bottom a bit, and now I am getting a bit better. Didn't have a suicide attempt for a bit over 2 months. Felt actual happiness, found a supporter. Been getting better bit by bit, though still have complete drops... Been 2-3 weeks since I last ran away from someone in the street panicking...

So I can say, support, love and this site, that I now call my home, more than I do the abusive place where I live... But the best approach to healing varies by the person. I am still far far from stable, and life is unpredictable, most social situations hard to handle, but I don't panic fully and run away, which is a step.

To get better, what I needed was a boost up so I can teach the staircase, as the bottom part of it broke. After that, you just need to climb, passing holes in the staircase and so on.

Well, brainstormed a bit... Sorry

Welcome to the forums and hugs if you accept, see ya on here :hug:s

 

[Parrothead Michael]

To the person above me otakujome. To me, you have with the post above shown incredible strength, courage, in caring for another as you just did and sharing your brainstorm. Please don't be sorry for trying to care about another human. From someone scared at times to be close to another, please accept my hug if you can and I hope you get some uninterrupted sleep.

 

[the otherside]

Thanks to you both for the thoughtful reply..I will try to look up that meditation. I know what you mean about the suicidal thoughts. If it wasn't for my kids I would be out of here already. That's how hopeless it feels.

 

[Parrothead Michael]

I really and truly hope and for a good as a prayer from a "sinner like me" am praying that the meditation can help you. I know feelings of hopelessness and I know that feeling not alone has helped. Another idea, I absolutely love music and think it is beautiful, amazing, and can heal. Try to think of and listen to one song that has made you feel better before or gives you a good feeling and look it up, listen to it, and just take a break for yourself for one song. I don't have kids, but if I was as fortunate as you to have them and they were helping me hold on, I would go and hug them. Hope that helps in any way.

Be well.

 

[Friday]

Most of the time I don't use medication. I'm neither for nor against meds, they're tools. Tool can be helpful or not (hammers suck at unscrewing things, a screwdriver is pretty useless as a saw).

When I'm at my worst, however, no kind of therapy helps by itself. Because I can't get there. Either physically (I'm sorry, but this couch would float off into space if I weren't here to hold it down, and I live in ClassB airspace. I'm performing a public service. Dodging floating couches is not something airliners are designed to do!), or even if I can get the bod there, my mind isn't present. I can't think, talk, hear, or process.

When I'm that bad off, either way, I need some chemical distance. To get my ass out the door, or thinking/processing.

At which point, either on meds or off, the types of therapy that have helped me the most vary. By what my biggest problems at the moment are.

Probably the most useful to me from a livability standpoint overall has been exposure therapy. Link Removed

 

[Parrothead Michael]

I too believe that you need to have as many "tools in the toolbox" that help so you are not dependent on one thing.

I myself try to practice the "get my ass out the door, or thinking/processing" theory above with some note worthy success.

Just reading that CBT For PTSD article above has engaged my mind in a positive way and not a dark/upsetting way because someone thought to share it with me and I can see where I might apply it and that it gives hope. I believe in hope.

 

[theotherside]

Thanks so much everyone for suggestions. I guess I really need some new tools.

 

[sun seeker]

To get better, what I needed was a boost up so I can teach the staircase, as the bottom part of it broke. After that, you just need to climb, passing holes in the staircase and so on.

You're so eloquent sometimes @otakujome. Do you write poetry?

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I don't know what kind of therapy helps most, it's an individual thing. Some will say CBT, some somatic experiencing, so on and so forth. It depends what resonates with you and especially on the therapist you find. There have been studies done on what kinds of therapy work best and there is a lot of discrepancy, that is to say, it depends. One thing that keeps coming up, though, is that the most important thing is the quality of the relationship with your therapist. Maybe interview a few (some will do a free phone consult) and see what feels best to you.

 

[Tinyflame]

Like @sun seeker said above, & trust, honesty, facing fears, credible advice & clear guidance, working at it, trying what is scary, learning one's limits. Baby steps definitely. Trying to find a motivation to keep trying (as you said your children).

Hugs & peace to you.

 

[sun seeker]

Like [DLMURL="https://www.myptsd.com/c/members/28120/"]@sun seeker[/DLMURL] said above, & trust, honesty, facing fears, credible advice & clear guidance, working at it, trying what is scary, learning one's limits.

That wasn't what I said, but it sounds like excellent advice!