Sufferer Helpless

[MissCanada]

I have been suffering from PTSD for a while now. I've had several traumatic events in my life to trigger this, also there are other mental Health issues.
The last event was an assault by the psychiatrist I was seeing for these very issues. Since then(after going to police) I haven't been able to get any psychiatrist help at all. Went to my family doc right after that happened and tried for a new psych doc-with no luck at all. We believe somehow I've been blacklisted for the mental health community. I've been to the point where I wanted to end my life-was taken to hospital by police and was released after the psych doc on call refused to talk to me and walked out of the room before even hearing why I'm upset. I got to therapy but it doesn't seem to work. The meds I'm on don't seem to work but I can't see the right professional to know what to do. I'm at a loss, I've tried everything I can think of. It's like the world is against me for something that happened to me that I had no control over. I literally have no where to turn. My family doesn't talk about it when I bring it up, and I believe it's because they don't know what to say. Which I can understand, but it doesn't make anything feel better.
Does anybody have any suggestions, or kind words??
Thanx

 

[Intrepid]

Thanks for you honesty. You are not alone. There are many stories on here like yours. Finding solutions to PTSD is tough. I've gone into so many dead ends.

Eventually I was in the right place at the right time. I was struck with a series of flashbacks and panic attacks that left me reeling, and at the same time I started marriage counselling. After 6 months of little progress with the marriage I saw the marriage counselor alone. She knew about the flashbacks, and had seen me go into them in couples counselling. For the next 4 years she saw me go through a lot more.

Things are better now, not perfect, but better.

There are options. I went to several free therapists. They were working toward certification. They didn't really help that much with the trauma issues, but at least I wasn't alone. That mattered a lot.

 

[rainy_daze]

Hello MissCanada. Welcome to the forum.

Suggestions:

• are there any local charities you could go to for help/someone to talk to? Maybe they could help you find someone to monitor your medication.
• any helplines you can call?
• is there a possibility you can go to a different general practitioner/doctor to ask for a psychiatrist referral (instead of the family doctor)?
• are you still in touch with the police, in case they can find you victim support after your assault?

Please call a helpline if you feel suicidal.

If you are still in therapy [I wasn't sure from reading your post if you were still going], it would be a good idea discuss what you have said above with your therapist.

It sounds like you have been through a great deal recently. I wish you well on your healing journey. There are many good articles in The Vault section, which might be a good start to read on self help, until you find the appropriate support. Keep trying, sometimes it takes perseverance and a long wait to find the right help.

 

[Notsowild]

You have us here. We all understand what you're going through. There are lots of great knowledgeable people here and great articles. And if you need to talk just post on here. You are not alone.
Welcome to the forum.

 

[Notsowild]

Just a few suggestions:
CMHA- they have local chapters if you check online
AnxietyBC- Each province should have one. They have CBT skills online
Anxiety and depression groups- most communities have these.
PTSD groups- usually in the bigger cities
Take care of yourself.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

hi, and welcome. I think that @Notsowild has a few good suggestions for you. Maybe a few other Canadians will wander in and have more recommendations as mental health varies from country to country. I wish you the best.

 

[MissCanada]

Thank you all
There are some good suggestions here I really haven't tried. I'll look into them. I do still go to therapy and I have a good connection with her, it just seems that I don't move forward. I feel stuck.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum!