I met him at work. I was in a nonexistent marriage and he had been divorced for a couple years already. He was soft spoken and we got along very well. We were the bestest of friends. I finally left my husband Nd for my own place. Only to end up stalked by that exhusband and forced to leave my apartment.
My current husband which was quickly becoming more than a friend offered for us to stay with him. Well that's when I began to notice he had some strange behaviors. On the outside he was so charming loving and my whole family adored him. Then one day his exwife emailed me with a lot of accusations toward him. I felt uneasy about it and started to have doubts.
I wanted to go back home and that day we argued and I saw a person I never seen before. He punched himself in the head several times and cried so bad there was buggers all over his mouth poring out of his nose it was a devestating thing to see. Needless to say I stayed. Thinking he must love me that much. Big mistake.
Ever since then which was about 4 yrs ago things have gotten worst.
Fast forward to about 2 years ago he thought I wanted to kill him he ran away. Jumped out the window and ran away. Was gone for 6 weeks. I to this day don't know where he was. If I ask or bring it up he goes into a rage. Mistake #2 taking him back.
To cut it short he was talking to someone. I found the number in the phone bill. I called and she refused to tell me why or who she was. He says I'm a liar. And that I will go to jail for harassing people. Which I wasn't. I simply was looking for him. Either way that created the trust issues I have.
Then there's how he just had to become a Freemason and pretend that everything is perfect. The fact that he judges everyone yet pretends to be a Christian. While he curses me at home keeps me feeling belittled and is generally a hateful person.
We fell pregnant and have a baby now. And when we argued he pointed a finger to my head and said that if anyone tries to take his baby away he will kill them. I feel terrified sometimes because he swears up and down he owns a gun. And he knows I am afraid of Guns and do not want them in our home.
He is hypervigilant.
My children have to be very quiet they are not allowed to speak their opinion on religion or politics I'm not either. I just don't know where to begin.
I notice he has anxiety but he refuses to admit it. He says I'm not going to label him cause he will lose his security clearances. I just feel at the end of the line. He keeps me feeling like I'm worthless and no one will want me.
I want to divorce but won't have a home or car.
My current husband which was quickly becoming more than a friend offered for us to stay with him. Well that's when I began to notice he had some strange behaviors. On the outside he was so charming loving and my whole family adored him. Then one day his exwife emailed me with a lot of accusations toward him. I felt uneasy about it and started to have doubts.
I wanted to go back home and that day we argued and I saw a person I never seen before. He punched himself in the head several times and cried so bad there was buggers all over his mouth poring out of his nose it was a devestating thing to see. Needless to say I stayed. Thinking he must love me that much. Big mistake.
Ever since then which was about 4 yrs ago things have gotten worst.
Fast forward to about 2 years ago he thought I wanted to kill him he ran away. Jumped out the window and ran away. Was gone for 6 weeks. I to this day don't know where he was. If I ask or bring it up he goes into a rage. Mistake #2 taking him back.
To cut it short he was talking to someone. I found the number in the phone bill. I called and she refused to tell me why or who she was. He says I'm a liar. And that I will go to jail for harassing people. Which I wasn't. I simply was looking for him. Either way that created the trust issues I have.
Then there's how he just had to become a Freemason and pretend that everything is perfect. The fact that he judges everyone yet pretends to be a Christian. While he curses me at home keeps me feeling belittled and is generally a hateful person.
We fell pregnant and have a baby now. And when we argued he pointed a finger to my head and said that if anyone tries to take his baby away he will kill them. I feel terrified sometimes because he swears up and down he owns a gun. And he knows I am afraid of Guns and do not want them in our home.
He is hypervigilant.
My children have to be very quiet they are not allowed to speak their opinion on religion or politics I'm not either. I just don't know where to begin.
I notice he has anxiety but he refuses to admit it. He says I'm not going to label him cause he will lose his security clearances. I just feel at the end of the line. He keeps me feeling like I'm worthless and no one will want me.
I want to divorce but won't have a home or car.
