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Nicoletter,
How did you read my mind from so far away? I was thinking that very thing this morning... how was it for Anthony before he got a handle on it...
Well, luckily I have not attacked back as I know it will only worsen his anxiety. I usually just step back and wait.
Today is Veteran's Day and we were off of work. I went to his house this morning and all I got was "please leave". I asked to talk, I asked why he was being this way, and then I just left in tears. I sent him a text msg that said "it has swallowed you up and it hurts so much". Many hours later I sent "uncle"... which is what we say when we give up.
I don't know what I'll do at the next football game. I will go because the boys will notice and be hurt if I weren't there... and he would blame me in his current state of mind.
Your post did help a great deal... at least I know that I am not experiencing something out of the ordinary for ptsd. I so wish he would come here and learn more instead of wallowing in self pity and relying on prescription drugs to make him feel better. If he only had the strength to try to help himself. I know that it will never be a healthy relationship until he does, so I will stand on the outskirts guarding my heart. Can I wait until his ex comes home from the desert as that has been the biggest stress of all for him. During the summer, before she left, we had so much fun and could actually talk about the ptsd.
Hugs to you Nicolette and Anthony!!
D
How did you read my mind from so far away? I was thinking that very thing this morning... how was it for Anthony before he got a handle on it...
Well, luckily I have not attacked back as I know it will only worsen his anxiety. I usually just step back and wait.
Today is Veteran's Day and we were off of work. I went to his house this morning and all I got was "please leave". I asked to talk, I asked why he was being this way, and then I just left in tears. I sent him a text msg that said "it has swallowed you up and it hurts so much". Many hours later I sent "uncle"... which is what we say when we give up.
I don't know what I'll do at the next football game. I will go because the boys will notice and be hurt if I weren't there... and he would blame me in his current state of mind.
Your post did help a great deal... at least I know that I am not experiencing something out of the ordinary for ptsd. I so wish he would come here and learn more instead of wallowing in self pity and relying on prescription drugs to make him feel better. If he only had the strength to try to help himself. I know that it will never be a healthy relationship until he does, so I will stand on the outskirts guarding my heart. Can I wait until his ex comes home from the desert as that has been the biggest stress of all for him. During the summer, before she left, we had so much fun and could actually talk about the ptsd.
Hugs to you Nicolette and Anthony!!
D
