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Undiagnosed Hi bpd with complex trauma

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ihateme

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hi, am in my 30s and have been labeeled with personality disorder. therapist said BPD often associated with trauma early in life so i looked into CPTSD and it fits to a t. my current CPN thinks i have more BPD than CPTSD but i was abused bullied and suffered serious illness as a child and have anxiety panic anger rage fear of abandonment self harm eating disorder social anxiety i do not trust people, am lacking confidence in trying new things and was hurt and find being close to people difficult
 
Hi @ihateme - welcome to the forum.

BPD and CPTSD can often be confused for each other. The good news is, much of the therapeutic approach is (generally) the same in either case. People with BPD need to support themselves with strong cognitive therapy skills; dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) is a big key.

Hope you find the site helpful.
 
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Welcome!
I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder as a teen. (my first husband, who I married at age 19 and was 12 years older than I, was a Fundamentalist Christian and I was never allowed to see mental health professionals......so I didn't see another one until I was in my late 20's). I have been given the bipolar II diagnosis a couple of times since 2007 and a recent "visit" to rehab to address my 17 year addiction to alcohol gave me the diagnosis of C-PTSD (as well as that pesky BiPolar II dx). I too was abused terribly as a child. I was never bullied, but my first husband was abusive, especially mentally and spiritually. I will never attend a Christian church again. (I have gone to a couple of Catholic weddings and funerals....but I have never walked into a Baptist/Methodist/non-demonimational (especially one of those) since I left that evil man in 1987. The "trauma" has even been recent......just 2 months ago and before that, in May when I found out my adult children were "together"....yes...THAT together.

At any rate, enough about me. I am 51 years old and have lived with this a long time, it seems. I cannot speak for you, but DBT therapy has been SLOWLY helping. MY problem has been with my emotions.....according to my therapist, I "intellectualize" my emotions...there is a name for it (and I am too lazy to get up and look), but I take a really long time to come down from emotions....especially anger...I hold grudges a very long time....am a bit anti-social, (I used the alcohol to become more fluid in social situations....) and always think the worst of people....like you mentioned: a lack of trust.

I have heard we have a hard to deal with, (in a therapeutic manner), condition. I know the BPD is, of itself, a very difficult condition to have and "treat". Just by coming to a website and "talking" about it, is a step.

Hopefully I "meet ya again" in another conversation. (Sorry this post was a lot about me.....but I don't know you , yet....and I can only speak from my experiences.....) Hope you have a beautiful day! :)
 
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