Sufferer Hi Everyone, I'm Numb 90% Most Of The Time

[Needing Guidance]

You are Welcome and it is no problem. Take your time and feel comfortable telling your story.

I'm doing better today than I had been, but that is only due to the knowledge these members have helped me gain into PTSD. I only wish I knew about the symptoms a couple months ago, but I guess that is why most people are here. Knowledge.

Look forward to hearing more when the time comes.

 

[Needing Guidance]

What a cute little puppy. Looks like she just had a day at the spa!

 

[INCREDIBLEME01]

Thanks.........no actually I groom her myself. She turned 7 in July and I actually watched her be born. She is my therapy dog for my PTSD/Anxiety.

 

[Raj]

Welcome and go at your own pace.

 

[Needing Guidance]

Thanks.........no actually I groom her myself. She turned 7 in July and I actually watched her be born. She is my therapy dog for my PTSD/Anxiety.

Dogs do seem to help. More so than I originally thought.

 

[blackemerald1]

That it the perfect prototype for "systems" of PTSD. For me it is so ingrained it's sickening.

Madmax what did you mean by this?

Regards blackemerald1

 

[nursenurse]

Incredible - nice doggie, and welcome. there are many good people here, i hope you will find what you need.

Did you push your man away? Or did he walk? A common theme i find is that a lot of sufferers put words and feelings into their significant others mouths. and of course, you put yourself down at the same time. We supporters are a very tenacious bunch, we love you like no one else can. it doesn't make us anymore or any less than human. If you pushed a "wonderful man" away because you thought he deserved better, it may be that there is no one better for him than you. We don't just see PTSD. We see humour. We see intelligence. We see beauty. We see peace, well sometimes :) We see hope. Wee a remarkable soul. We see all that is right in the world, in our world, in our sufferers. The same as you would with a non sufferer. Being a sufferer does not make you a different species, although I gather you may well feel that at times.

I hope you are going for therapy. Life is too short and too wonderful to feel numb 90% of the time, and it is the best way out. You are somebody worth treasuring, worth loving. It is time for you to feel that about yourself. Your "wonderful man" can't be wrong.

 

[madmax]

I think I may have been trying to imply processes ie something going on..natural continuing action or a series of actions. My best guess...Sorry!

 

[I Can Do This]

Being a sufferer does not make you a different species, although I gather you may well feel that at times.

Nursenurse said it very well. PTSD is not a mental illness - it is an injury to your nervous system which is on overdrive, you can heal and feel so much better than you thought you ever could. It takes the RIGHT kind of help though - without it you will get worse. This is not something that heals all by itself - don't give another day of your life over to the past.

Sometimes I think PTSD should stand for PAST traumatic stress disorder. When we are reacting - we are ALWAYS bringing the past into the present. And I am the first to admit that it takes a therapist to help us realize when our ears hear something that wasn't said, or eyes see something that wasn't intended or didn't really happen that way. We tend to be very fearful people - always waiting for "it" to happen again rather than living in the moment today. So hypervigilant that we can't enjoy anything because all our energy goes in to bracing ourselves from the harm that we imagine is coming.

Lastly, I just want you to know that you don't have to tell your story to heal. That is the tradition in western psychology but it doesn't really help us because it places our focus on what happened in the past and not on how we have changed as a result of it today. The "it" that happened was the crisis event that will never go away and over which we never had control or power - but our problem today is how we are relating to ourselves, others and the world around us, and that is where we do have power. I don't know if this is coming out right or not - my point is simply that the PTSD is apparent in how you are doing today, so is important to keep your focus on what is going on in your life today - and why that is overwhelming you - then connect those emotions all the way back to the very first time you felt it. That is what you are looking for - the insight to your own fears and behaviors - not as an excuse for them - but as a way to consciously take the control back over your life and behavior.

I hope this makes sense to you. It sounded brilliant in my head! lol

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome. :)

 

[blackemerald1]

Madmax, now I understand, no need for sorry. Thanks for the insight.




Kind regards
blackemerald1

 

[Lady_A]

Hi I didn't have the patience to stay I walked out yesterday, and it feels good and bad, I am worried about him,and don't know what to do.