Hi Everyone, My First Post

[Sasha]

Shiraz, I also wanted to let you know that the words you shared were really thoughtful. That you too understood what it is like to hold onto it for years and that you were overwhelmed when you realized the extent of what was to be dealt with. Thank you for sharing that with me and the journey you've been on the last couple of years. I'm really thankful that I posted here yesterday. The last two weeks were really bad and I think the hardest part of some days is what was going on in my own head. Your compassion here has given me a little more hope.

I read the post about the 'masks'. That is such the story of my life. I would wear the smile mask and people would ask me why I was so happy. I would laugh and say 'ahh, but you have no idea what is really going on in here" as I pointed to my head. They thought I was being funny, I was serious. I don't smile very much these days. I don't have the energy to fake it and that is probably one of the reasons I prefer to stay to myself.

hugs to all, Sasha

 

[JohnnyM53]

Hi Sasha,

Welcome home! You'll find some good people here who can relate to some or all of what you have gone through and vice versa, and helpful information from the site administrators and the members.

Don't be shy to ask questions, vent, express an opinion, or share whatever you feel comfy sharing with us.

And remember: You're Only Human (Billy Joel) and "It's not your fault; it's not your fault; it's not your fault". (Good Will Hunting movie)

Join us for chat whenever you find the time. Sometimes it gets serious; most times it's lighthearted and fun.

Johnny

 

[eyebiter]

Hi all

Just letting everyone know what I suffer everyday in my own way,hope some day to calibrate to health for all.

 

[reallydown]

Welcome to the forum, Sasha.

My ptsd also reared its ugly head years after the trauma...and I also thought I was weak to let if affect me so much. I was always the strong one...and I totally relate to the mask thing...as I'm sure many people here do. This is a good place though...it has helped me a lot. Glad you've found it.