Sufferer Hi From Coffee

[Coffee]

Hi there,

I havn't hung around alot yet, but I registered yesterday and thougt I would introduce myself a little. I looked for some forum about ptsd and dissociative disorders in french, but found none, so here I am.

I was diagnocticied ptsd, dissociative, depressive and borderline some years ago, but I'm a lot better now. Kind of stabilised. On medication though.

As many others suffering from ptsd, I had a difficult childhood with mistreatments (physical, psychological and sexual) and abuse. I was already having a very hard time with a lot of dissociative symptoms when my youngest son died in sudden infant death.

After many years of therapy and medication, I'm not dissociating any more, but I miss my alters. I believe I'm integrated, but I'm not sure. However, my (former ?) alters don't take over anymore. I'm just so extremely tired. When my alters were there, I could do a lot of stuff without being tired, but now... I'm tired all day long and I must sleep a lot more. That's my main problem these days : the need of sleep although I have difficulties sleeping...

Sorry if there are english mistakes or bizarre grammar ; english is not my mothertongue.

Hoping to see you onbord,
Coffee

 

[Silver.]

Welcome to the forums

 

[rosey]

Hi and welcome. Your English is perfectly fine. Sometimes you just have to do what your body tells you if you are tired and have sleep problems then sleep while it will come.

 

[Coffee]

Thank you @Silver.

 

[Coffee]

Thank you @rosey

Yes, I believe you're wright, it's just very annoying because I'm trying to live rather "normally" after a lot of lost years : I so wish I could step out there and keep on going, you know what I mean. I want to leave traumas behind, but they run alongside me and... well, I'm so tired :( But I do sleep a lot (can't do otherwise). Thanks for your support :)

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[aut555]

It's like we can't out run those traumas. I like how you said traumas run beside us. They can pick up speed and trip us. Especially if we try to ignore them. I want to gather all of them together and have a giant pity party, then when they think they got the best of me, shove all the trama off a cliff. Only in my dreams.