Hi From NYC - Ignored My PTSD For Eight Years

[stellastar]

My name is Katherine, I live in NYC, and I have been pretty much ignoring a diagnosis of PTSD I received about eight years ago, in conjunction with ongoing depression and anxiety disorder. I am mostly worried at this point about issues of anger repression and anger management. Everyone thinks I am the most cheerful person alive, but I feel that I am often on the verge of exploding. I am very confused by PTSD as a condition at this point, and am finally realizing I need to do some exploring...and since I can't afford therapy at the moment--this seems like a good starting place.

 

[anthony]

Hi stella, welcome to the forum. Yep, dismissing PTSD eventually catches up with us all... sooner or later it wins, its just a matter of when! Once it does though, its face it and live life, or ignore it and exist.

 

[nov_silence]

Glad you are here. Can definately relate to the anger issues. You are not alone. Welcome!

 

[cookie]

hey, stella. welcome.
cathy

 

[nov_silence]

If you can talk about it, what caused your PTSD?

 

[mouse]

Welcome Stella, Funny how no mater how hard we try to hide/ignore our PTSD it always is there waiting. Hope that you can find some good support here, I have.

 

[stellastar]

The cause? Witnessing the severe physical abuse of my best friend and her sister. And a series of sexual attacks in my childhood from a number of different perpetrators.

 

[nov_silence]

I also suffered sexual abuse in my past... and my parents were very physically abusive to me and my sister and my cousin/brother (ah, something else to write about in my trauma diary).

Keep sharing, we are listening. Don't let shame get the best of you.

 

[Nam]

Welcome Stella. I'm glad you've found us.

 

[Marlene]

Hi Stella and welcome.