Hi, I'm New Here.

[Andrew Ware]

My PTSD takes the modus of 'explosion' of anger. I looked up "PTSD and ''explosive anger' and found this site.

EMDR is great. Zen Buddhist meditation is also good..a counsellor / therapist always good.

It is rare that I explode, but explode I can. It's annoying to put it mildly and costs me jobs in past history, as is now my current case after 5 years of good n OK.

I am ex-Services, but I point at a whole chain of various links of life experiences where pain, seeing others pain, seeing them die, drown, shot, (( No wonder I just love my dog and others' dogs too ) I nearly drowned as a kid, nearly "God-knows-what-would-have-happened if.." in a nasty village called Sembawang on Singapore 1970. "Self worth' comes into the picture pretty much as a somewhat bottom line.

I'll need an evaluation from a "Trick-cyclist" aka Psychiatrist IF I am to get extended understanding at my next workplace. Tho' I have seen Counsellors and therapists on and off over the years..the problem persists.

I stopped zazen-meditation, which likely I shouldn't have. Please don't slam doors while I drift off to sleep for I may get ''gunfire'' bad dreams of intensity...which I don't like, but can bear with.. I am checking 'Talk2Minds currently..

Andy.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi Andy, welcome to the forum. It is so nice to meet you and see you here.

I promise not to slam doors, living in an open plan house we don't have to many doors. I'm also having EMDR and am looking at meditation. I couldn't to the day to day stuff without practising my coping/grounding techniques.

The information on the articles section on the home page is v good and well worth looking at.

I have found support, strength and friendship in the community here. I have a supportive family but sometimes they just don't get IT. Here I feel understood and loved. There is someone to help by sharing techniques on the bad days and to celebrate achievements.

I hope you will feel at home soon and will continue posting, it does help.
((HUGS)) if you will accept them
KP

 

[1966]

Hi Andy,
Welcome to the forum. This is a great site for information and support, like you I'm ex services and I am so glad I found this forum. I hope you can get as much out of being here as I have.
Regards, Sean

 

[apex_70]

Hello Andy, glad you are here.

 

[Andrew Ware]

After my 'little' blowout...I feel mentally and physically exhausted. God if only ( yes, it's an "If Only' moment again !)
folk simply spoke respectfully instead of trashing me by shouting needlessly at me.

Exhausted. Fk ! Now I feel I would rather simply be a "Street Person" and just tramp around....freedom, relief, and the V sign to the fkn world is how I feel right now.

Friends, I am still processing the brain-crap. My dreams last night were therapeutic, I believe. I believe the mind has "Tools of the Mind and For the Mind". Maybe it really is good to just see the dreams like a brain-cleaning or say, a mind rinsing activity. Sorry, but I am meandering the analytical shight yet again. Hold tight, have faith in faith.

I know it's hard swimming upstream, but let that rock up ahead keep you in the lee of the fast flowing river. Sit silently-comfortably...two conscious breaths, ...ignore all thoughts howsoever they arise -no matter the content..just watch it go by..without that little 'mind-arm' going out to grab the thoughts..Let the thoughts roll until they slow down..and slow and slow..Until, as if entering a clearing in the forest of thoughts, the thoughts clear. And such experience lets you know that possibilities are truly possible, and so ya won't need to hang onto 'faith' so tightly..

Hanging loose will happen....I try. We all try...my musings currently..Hope it helps any of you guys.

Thanks for being here..thanks...

 

[KP the nut]

Hold on, take it slowly. Please breathe, slowly, count breathing in for 4 hold for 2 out for 4.

Hang on in, I am here

(((HUGS)))
KP

 

[Marie E.]

Welcome to the Forum Andrew. Lots of support here

 

[Andrew Ware]

Glad to hear from all you folks. Applied for job..OK..(( of course my poor psyche is still 'get well' cycle )...Interview may well occur...the suspense is still a gripper...

 

[Andrew Ware]

Homeopathic method ? Walk deeply into the woodlands. Find a tree. Scream the hell at the tree..Take slow breaths..Ask yourself, 'Do you feel better now ?".. must be the world's least costly therapy ! ( apologise to the poor tree !..Drew..) "Not all wounds are visible."

 

[blueangel371115]

Hello and welcome,
I too deal with a 'anger monster'. I started a thread in symptoms about it, people had some helpful tips. Hang in there.