Hi I'm new here and just looking for a place of support.
I have currently been through a series of traumatic events. I am not currently working and have found myself very isolated and depressed so I guess today I just managed to pick up my computer and find some help out here.
I'm not sure if anyone else understands. I do have a therapist and a doctor. I missed my appointment today because I just don't feel like there is any hope, or I belong in society any more. I am feeling very jaded...ruined in fact. I keep looking on facebook at pictures of my younger sister and wishing I had her eyes again, her heart, yet feeling so good she isn't ruined.
I'm not really sure how to explain this. Once upon a time I felt innocent in many ways. I remember when my ex always used to tell me how innocent i looked. That wasn't too long ago in fact. I'm 29 now.
These days I look at my eyes and I despise them though once they were my favourite feature. I get a lot of comments about my eyes. But only the beholder of ones eyes know how beautiful they really are.
Do any of you find yourself just sat there expressionless ? faceless ? emotionless ? Do you remember arriving to that point, and suddenly realizing.. something is wrong here ?
I know this is a depressed introduction, but this is where I'm at, and just trying to find people who understand or feel similar.
I have currently been through a series of traumatic events. I am not currently working and have found myself very isolated and depressed so I guess today I just managed to pick up my computer and find some help out here.
I'm not sure if anyone else understands. I do have a therapist and a doctor. I missed my appointment today because I just don't feel like there is any hope, or I belong in society any more. I am feeling very jaded...ruined in fact. I keep looking on facebook at pictures of my younger sister and wishing I had her eyes again, her heart, yet feeling so good she isn't ruined.
I'm not really sure how to explain this. Once upon a time I felt innocent in many ways. I remember when my ex always used to tell me how innocent i looked. That wasn't too long ago in fact. I'm 29 now.
These days I look at my eyes and I despise them though once they were my favourite feature. I get a lot of comments about my eyes. But only the beholder of ones eyes know how beautiful they really are.
Do any of you find yourself just sat there expressionless ? faceless ? emotionless ? Do you remember arriving to that point, and suddenly realizing.. something is wrong here ?
I know this is a depressed introduction, but this is where I'm at, and just trying to find people who understand or feel similar.
