Hi My Name Is Jo

[jo may]

Thank you as well bittersweet, your all being so nice and welcoming. I really hope I start to feel better. I know it won't be an over night thing but I'm fine with that. And that's how I feel I love my husband dearly but he will never truly understand what I'm going through.

Jo

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi Jo,

Welcome to the forum. Sorry you are having such a rough time at the moment, but there is always hope. With lots of hard work you can begin to heal. You have done the hardest part, by accepting that there is a problem, rather than burying your feelings. Sincerely well done. The road ahead is rocky, but you now have support from an amazing group of people, you understand too well the flashbacks, nightmares and isolation etc.

I administer the sexabuse forum, that others have mentioned, and you'd be very welcome to join us there too. :)

Regards
CB

 

[IvyMillie]

I'm sorry you have been through so much. That's really terrible. I hope that you can get the help and support you need. Don't feel bad if you are struggling, anyone would be in your situation. It's great that you know you need help and are taking positive steps.

I think we all get self-destructive sometimes, when we feel we can't go on. You are worth taking care and saving yourself. I'm glad you are trying to get better. One step and a time. As someone else said you will get better.

 

[jo may]

Thank you so much CB. I tried to cope on my own for to long. I'm now ready to accept that I need proper help.
Jo

 

[jo may]

Thanks Ivy, you are all being so nice it's strange as I'm not use to it. And it's so great to have people that understand what I'm going through.

Jo

 

[a3a2]

AH, Jo, I am so sorry. Sorry for the loss of your baby, and so sorry for the loss of your innocence. Thirteen?! Where on earth were your parents? Why weren't you being protected?

I am glad you have found the site, and I pray for your healling journey.

 

[jo may]

Thanks a3a2 and hi back to you. I am on the right path now and I know it.

I was young but to be fair to my parents I was a horrible nasty child. And mum tried to look after me but I knew best.

I now spend a lot of my time making sure my mum and dad never have to know.
Mind I have always had this feeling they know more than they let on.

Jo :)

 

[jo may]

Hi everyone, I would like to share something that has really upset me.

I've not been to good today so when it got worse and more unbearable I phoned the 24hr helpline we have here. She advised me to take my meds, get comfy and watch a dvd I should nod off.
So I did as she advised and I actually fell asleep, only to be woken up by my hubby who than followed waking me by having ago at me.

It has really upset me and I did snap at him but I think he deserved it. I'm sorry it annoys you or hinders you in some way, I just love having my nightmare and dreaming about being beaten and raped.

All day all I've heard from him is my finger hurt blah blah, so you think your sore finger is bigger than my nightly hell. Well thanks and I'll try not to scream to loud.

Sorry everyone I'm ranting lol

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[a3a2]

"I was a horrible, nasty child."

Jo, you were a child. A little girl. You needed boundaries. You needed protection. You needed love.