Hi ... New Here

[Wrknprgrss]

Not really sure how to write this. I've always moved around as more of a ghost on these kinds of forums, but ... I've been in therapy for about five months and think maybe sharing and talking about these things might help. Okay ... so ... me?

I was abused for 13 years by a number of people ... I've never bothered counting. It started when I was six years old. Started physical, turned sexual (including rape). Abuse continued at the hands of others. Severely beaten repeatedly by a coach. Sexually abused by another. And so on and so it went until I was 19.

Struggle with lots of flashbacks, variety of triggers, struggle a LOT with dissociation, some social anxiety, and have a second dx of Borderline Personality Disorder ... so a lot of the problems that go along with that.

I'm not sure if this is what I am supposed to share here. But, maybe it's a start?:peekaboo:

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Rentanaardvark,
Welcome to the forum.
You have done well to share what you have. There is no right or wrong, just share whatever you are comfortable with.

Curious username - would you like to tell us why you chose it?

Regards
Lucy x

 

[Wrknprgrss]

Hi Lucy,
Thank you for the welcome!

As far as my user name, it's just randomness. I had a friend in college who had a strange affection for aardvarks .... sort of the way some people like teddy bears or lady bugs or something like that I guess. Anyway, renting an aardvark just sort of became an inside joke we had. I always have a hard time picking out screen names for email and forums and things so this has become my default :)

 

[cherryblossom]

Hello Rentanaardvark :wave:

Welcome to the forum.
Great start!! :thumbsup:
Write as much or as little as you are able, but pushing yourself a little, as you have done is a positive. Well done

CB

 

[Wrknprgrss]

Hello Cherryblossom :)
Thank you for the welcome. Never expected to find a feeling of safety from an online forum ... thank you! :hug:

RAA