Sufferer Hi.. Tis Me

[MyNameIsBecca]

Hi peeps,
Im feeling totaly overwhelmed im an ex cutter and someone whos tried to suicide twice. I am feeling like backsliding and dangerous. Im on my last thread before snapping. Ive found this site and i wondered if it would help me hold on.

Im Becca.

 

[Della]

Hello Becca. Have you been going to therapy to see a doctor for mental health? Are you currently taking medications for your situation? Please do not try to backslide into that point when you feel like hurting yourself because if you do guess what? You won't be able to talk to your friends anymore or be able to come to this forum to talk to us. Pleas do not take for granted the fact that you are living and are able to talk taste , and feel and see things and move around. The dead cannot do that honey so please try to look at the bright side of things. I know that it's hard to press forward but you have come to the right place honey to get help and encouragement from other suffers and supporters who care. You matter to somebody and that somebody is us on this forum ok? Please try to remember that if you are still feeling bad please call a PTSD support hot line or something. :hug::hug:

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Welcome to the forum X there's so many lovely people in here who will support you X please don't hurt yourself , try to speak to a professional , things may look really bad right but with the correct support things will get better X

 

[Changing4Best]

Hi Becca, Welcome and yes, this site has really helped me and I am a suicide attempt survivor too. I think suicide is highly overrated, and when you wake up from such an attempt, things aren't so good. So I am glad I got through all that safely and I have this site and my therapists (one at a time, of course) to thank for that.

Hang in there, breathe in the fresh air here, enjoy looking at the stars or the trees or whatever helps you when you are away from your therapist and this site. Try to find some thing to distract you when you think of harming yourself. What do you like to do? What kinds of things make you happy? Is there anything in your life that you are grateful for? Thinking of all these kinds of things helps me a lot and so I hope that you can find some peace in thinking about them too.

I will be praying for you, Becca. I hope that is OK.

 

[MyNameIsBecca]

Hi Becca, Welcome and yes, this site has really helped me and I am a suicide attempt survivor too. I...

Im also A christian

 

[Anarchy]

Hi Becca,
Welcome to the forum.

This is a safe place with all sorts of people who really do get it.

Can I ask a question?

Why are you putting a deadline up there for your self?

Why the last post before, when you have already come so far?

The nature of this place is we've got 24 hour coverage, so it may well be an American, an ausie a kiwi or an Indian who you are conversing with next, but that's OK. Cos it's past my bed time.

You might Like to think why and put it out there, see if the reasons still stand up when they are in black and white.

Hugs if you'll have them
@

 

[WillyKat]

There are many, many of us that have dwelt where you are now. We held on another minute, hour, day, week...and we're still here. More to the point, we that know that edge your looking at really want to help you, and we need you too.

There's a hint. You have something special that someone out there needs so that they can hang on. There are bad people that don't want you to heal. They don't want that because if you heal, you become a threat to them. So please become a threat to them.

Let us know what's going on in terms of getting professional help. Are you getting therapy? Have you been diagnosed?

Look around the site and elsewhere on the Internet for articles that will help you understand what you're dealing with.

 

[intothelight]

@MyNameIsBecca Welcome!

There are so many of us who have been at the point that you are at and you did a really good thing by reaching out for help. Sometimes you just have to take it an hour at a time.
You are really among people who do understand and get it.

 

[MyNameIsBecca]

Im so overwhelmed by your kindness and care... Heres a little more on myself- im 17. My parents live in africa with my two younger siblings. My older brother and i live in switzerland. He lives in the town next doors to me. I live with an elderly couple who allow me to rent out a room. I was diagnosed with depression three years ago. And just this august i started a treatment for it. I have a phyciatrist but shes on holliday at the moment.
I have medication for my sleeping problems too. As well as anxiaty. But none of those seem to be working. The only person i really trust is my incredible boyfriend. But hes in canada...

 

[Changing4Best]

Im also A christian

Great! In that case, you might benefit by reading a thread here in the SOCIAL part of the Forum. It is called CHRISTIANS UNITE! and there is also another thread called PRAYER REQUESTS which you will find to be very helpful. There are a lot of Christians on this Forum from all the denominations too. Enjoy.

 

[WillyKat]

For many years I though I had depression, and I was right. But its just one of the symptoms of PTSD.

If the meds aren't working, let your psychiatrist know on your next visit. If you've just started taking them, your doc may tell you to hold on for a bit; some of them need to build up in your body to really have an effect.

I know its a very personal question, and we're a bunch of strangers, but if you feel comfortable with us, let us know your story. You might want to read some of the Trauma Diaries posts to get a feel for how much people divulge about their personal stuff. Like nearly everything.

 

[intothelight]

@MyNameIsBecca Becca, are you in Switzerland going to school? Its tough to be alone when dealing with depression, so would it be better if you were with you parents?