Hi

[Paddy]

I was a 16 year FF/medic and National Search and Rescue member...have had PTSD since 1997 and it only worsened after working rescue/recovery for 5 months after the attacks on 9/11. Not much to say. Losing hope that I can beat this crap. Right now it is kicking my arse.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Welcome Paddy.

You'll beat it. You must be very brave person working as a medic and National Search and Rescue member. That takes a lot of caring and courage. And it requires a lot of courage to beat this I reckon.

There is a lot of wisdom and caring on this forum. It's helped me. I hope it helps you.

You kick it's arse right back.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Paddy,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. There are days (or weeks) it feels like the PTSD is winning, but it can get better. There is a lot of fantastic information on this site, and the support of the other members is invaluable as you work on healing.

Take care.
Debbie

 

[Paddy]

Thanks Debbie. I really need help. The problem is, I have been to 26 therapist and/or psychiatrists and none could help. Being an ex- first responder, I have seen and delt with my fair share of horrendous sites and should have been killed three times. I cannot seem to find anyone out there that can help. I am happy the VA is recognizing this and seemingly doing more for the Vets as I would not want any one of them to go through any of this. The Fire Dept sweeps it under the rug and being out of the service now due to 2 cancers and new hip (only 37y.o.) and that is due to working at Ground Zero, there seems to be nowhere to turn. I can talk to some friends but they do not understand. I can talk in AA, but I get the "just get over it" mentality back to me and alot of rolling of the eyes. I do not know where to turn, where to go and another thunderstorm is about to hit and that is a major trigger....feel lost.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hi Paddy,

You have overcome so much, this will be more possible after the thunderstorm passes, hang in there.
Hope you can keep posting and reading here.

Welcome and peace to you.

 

[CraftyCath]

"just get over it" mentality

aggggggghhhhhhhh!!!! Makes me so mad!

Welcome Paddy,

I have CPTSD from childhood trauma and from more recent events(I'm an x nurse). PTSD is has its ups and downs. It will get better, please hang in there.

Wishing you strength.