Strangelongtrip
MyPTSD Pro
Today I just...am done. Depression is overwhelming. My whole body feels fuzzy and achy at the same time, so does my brain, and last time I felt like that I got the flu, so obviously I'm also PANICKING that I'll catch COVID19, or even the flu again like last year. Most of my business was cancelled and I'm considering cancelling the rest. The whole isolation thing is getting to me. I'm also worried bc I've started to notice patterns, like hypomania and depressive episodes, in my month to month functioning. Maybe 2-3 weeks ago I was on the top of the world. Felt invincible. Felt beautiful, intelligent, awesome. Started a million projects. Loved everything I did. Now, the depression wave set in and I'm grasping to get through the day. Everything seems pointless. I know I should be excited about things and I do feel that under like 100 layers of sadness but it's not enough to motivate me. I had relapsed self harm wise a few days back bc my anxiety has also been so bad. But today, it's the depression.
Sorry if that didn't make sense. I'm struggling. thank you for reading.
Sorry if that didn't make sense. I'm struggling. thank you for reading.