Hope I'll be the last diary I'll ever write

[Givrali]

Well I'm really not good at making friend it a level it's painful to me

 

[Givrali]

I had to make this comment on girls group!?
Anyway I can't take it back. It would bring so much more unwanted attention to supress it or to diminish it.
Someone said how foot allowed her to become more popular and I couldn't not complain that I never risk to no being unpopular everywhere I went

 

[Givrali]

Unstable family, deadly cardiac issue, sexual abuse.
Well even without autism I never got a chance at school

 

[Givrali]

I'm feeling lonely this last days

 

[Givrali]

Don't look back you'd die. Well too bad I have ptsd so...

 

[Givrali]

Well go in my computer and it's story time I guess

 

[Givrali]

Well zoo tired to connect my phone and computer again to be on internet by my computer

 

[Givrali]

In short my memories is mixing emotional flash-back second hand tell and most horrorific things I read about children being tortured together

I couldn't just have to deal with what actually happened. I HAD to mix it with stories that aren't mine and were the worst I found in internet

 

[Givrali]

And now got three light triggers in one day

 

[Givrali]

For the most horrible thing I find on internet it clearly wasn't connected to my story.

Still I can understand at some level how horrific that could be.

 

[Givrali]

But no one actually died while I was hospitalized

 

[Givrali]

Right ?