It's everything for "us." Loud high pitch ringing in ears, eyesight goes fuzzy, blinking increases, inability to get comfortable, inability to make any eye contact, our hands feel odd as if they have to hold onto something, shallow breathing, flight feeling/panic attack leaving us feeling claustrophobic and confused, feeling words leave our lips but having no control, ability to hear and smell things so acutely, amnesia, and on and on. I'm always dissociating and rarely does the "host" come out. Trigger after trigger, med appt rescheduled to month later, and constant turmoil day by day...it's miserable and lonely and most days, we are certain the end is near. It will get worse before any chance of getting better. And there's not a single person in real life not including my t, I pay her who knows about this- not even my husband
