How Do You Possibly Keep Going When Your World Is Crumbling ??!!

[cherryblossom]

WW - you are not lousy, and your efforts aren't lousy. You are in a terrible position, and I really feel for you. I might be wrong, but you sound almost defeated? I just wanted to offer some suggestions which might get you thinking about possible solutions. So long as you keep looking for ways to help yourself, you will never be lousy. :hug:

 

[WonderingWhy]

You are in a terrible I might be wrong, but you sound almost defeated? :hug:

Let's see "defeated" is a good word.
1- I have been broke forever
2-It feels like I owe EVERYONE money
3-I can't/won't lose weight
4-I lost my home
5-I lost my rental home
6-I exhausted my retirement
7-I exhausted my savings
8-I lost a house full of furniture
9-My cat of 14 years died (while I spent virtually no time with her, her final 2 days of life, while I was moving stuff, and the 1st time in her life for her last 2 days of life, she spent stuck in a pet carrier) I am certain though she was not young the stress of all that contributed to her death. Once again MY FAULT!
10- My dog was taken from me because I "couldn't care for it properly" When I leave the hotel I had to place her in my van because alone in the room she would have barked and then I would have to leave the hotel. The other dog was fine in the room. So I had to decide to either give her up or risk losing the ONLY shelter I can find/afford for a bit that allows myself, my daughter cat & dog.(This happened the very NEXT day after losing my cat.)
10-Was informed my original storage is terminating my lease and I have to "move" all of that out of that storage to another place!
11-The hopes of getting my telephone therapy which is on a specialphone they hook up in your house is gone. No home, no home phone. No telephone therapy.
****Almost forgot!!! 12-Last night my car battery died. Or at least I hope that's all it is. I havn't been able to try and get it jumped yet!
I'd say yeah I'm feeling pretty defeated!!! If it were not for my daughter, I am fairly certain I would have given up long ago! I am trying to hang on, but the thread is getting quite thin. I just know at any moment it'll be more than I can even bare.

I know I sound like a whiney cry baby, but this IS how I feel right now. "Defeated"

 

[cherryblossom]

WW - you are not a whiney cry baby.
You have an enormous pile of shit going on.... you have every right to be angry, pissed off, defeated, whatever. I just want you to think of ways to make your situation better. Maybe you think there are no answers? But the situation isn't going to resolve itself, and sitting on line here, isn't going to find you and your daughter a home to live in. I could sit here and give you sympathy and empathy, but that won't 'help' much either, to be honest.
And if I'm pissing you off now, then use that anger and energy to do something pro-active to get yourself out of this mess. (And I don't mean, giving up ;))
You can give me all the excuses and reasons in the world, but don't give up trying. I'm giving you a kick up the butt!! Please take it, in the spirit that it's meant. You need to help yourself right now. I know you can do it.... yes, you might have to swallow your pride and ask people for help, but you owe it to yourself and your daughter to keep fighting. I'm concerned about you, ok. :hug:

 

[Crusoe]

WW I am soooooooooooo sorry that you are going through such very hard times. I do have one suggestion though. Over here (UK) with the economy being as it is there is obviously an increase in people who are really struggling to make ends meet. We have centres that can help those that are struggling by finding them accommodation and helping them resolve their debt issues. Currently they are taking on more and more debt counsellors and I would imagine that there must be an equivalent of these centres where you live? I know you struggle with crowds but over here they can support you by phone too. Can you try looking into somewhere like that that may be able to offer you emergency support?:hug:

 

[WonderingWhy]

I can check it out by phone. The only thing I know of already is going in and there are TONS of people. Honestly I would rather hang out in my car than face those crowds.

I will call and see if I can ask if there is anyway possible to do something by phone. "Nothing ventured, nothing gained." I appreciate the suggestion. Thank You:hug:

 

[Nicolette]

I can check it out by phone. The only thing I know of already is going in and there are TONS of people. Honestly I would rather hang out in my car than face those crowds

Maybe a catalyst for change? Sometimes life gives you a push in the direction you need to go even if you disagree.

Thinking of you :hug:

 

[cherryblossom]

Just wondered how things were going for you today WW? :hug:

 

[Nyx]

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I wish I could give you advice, but I can't. All I can say is that I'm thinking of you and I hope you find a solution as soon as possible. :hug:

 

[WonderingWhy]

I don't know how to keep going?!
:furious: I am so angry. There's not much worse than someone you thought was a "friend" stabbing you in the back. I would say "Kicking me when I'm down" but that doesn't even come close. Especially since I have done soo much for them in the past. Just a few things I have done for them when they were in a tough time.
1) Gave them 2 children I was babysitting for full time (siblings) because she had no income.
2)Gave MANY rides when they were without a vehicle
3)Gave them my vehicle when I got a new one.
4)Fed them many times!
5)Gave tons of hand me down clothes.
6)Provided gifts for kids birthdays and Christmas when they had no $ to buy them.
7) Provided a cell phone for their use AND replaced it 3 TIMES when they broke/lost it.
8)Baby sat etc, etc. if I could help I always did.

:eek: I am just stunned! In shock, in disbelief and REALLY hurt.

Most of you all know my situation is pretty dire. I have within the last two years been falling fast due to my PTSD!
I lost my home. I was then evicted from my rental. Currently in a hotel. :goingtocry:

:help:Was desperate to get out of the hotel before I had no money to pay for it.:confused: Thought things were about to turn around. I found a place I could afford AND was going to let me come now and start paying next month, since this month with paying for the hotel I had no money left.:no: Sounds good huh!? Well not so! :(

I saw no other option when I was completely out of $ and took one of those outragous "title loans". I knew I could not pay it back quickly but figured I was no longer at a location they knew, since I was evicted. I not surprisingly fell behind. I was just thankful that being at an unknown address I would be able to hang onto my vehicle until I could repay it.:no:

Well today (The day I was leaving the hotel) My so called "friend" calls at 9am asking info about the hotel for her "friends" mother coming to town. By 10am when I went down with my 1st load my vehicle was gone! :banghead:

:scream: I suppose I am not supposed to figure out how that happened! :thinking: Wasn't I surprised when I called this "friend" and her phone was off! :cry:

I REALLY CAN'T TAKE THIS!!!!!! Now I am:trapped: and don't know what to do. Can't stay in hotel. No $. Can't stay in vehicle. No vehicle. Can't go to new place because no transportation!:scream::scream::scream::scream:

 

[Nyx]

Oh dear, that's a really tough situation.. How did you handle it after all? Doesn't your daughter have a friend with a car to help at least with the transportation?

 

[cherryblossom]

WW - bad situation. I hope you've worked something out. Please let us know how you are doing. :hug:

Can you find any local charities that can home you, until you work out what to do?