Sexual Assault How It Started

[MrsBeasley86]

I wanted to open up and tell my story.
6 years old: I was molested by my uncle
9 years old: I was sexually assaulted by my brothers friend
11 years old: the boy across the street made me do things to him
11 years old: a boy down the road sexually assaulted me
13 years old: one of my guy friends tried to rape me
16 years old: I was raped

I never told anyone these things until I was 18 and in therapy. My therapist wanted me to talk to my mom about it. So I told her about my uncle. She still doesn't know all of them.

I have been in a few bad relationships. Physically and mentally abusive. I guess I just felt that's how relationships are.
I know better now. I am finally with an amazing guy who is by my side and who wants to help me get through all of this.
I have also found a therapist who wants to get to the bottom of everything and help me process it. I'm trying to have faith that I get better. But I guess sometimes it's just hard.

 

[AnnaC]

Ptsd makes everything harder. I have seen a lot of success stories on this site where people have learned to manage their symptoms and actually lead a better life. So even though we might feel hopeless a lot, apparently there is hope.:)
I have found tons of support in the short time since I stumbled onto this site. I am so sorry for what you have been through, no child should ever have to endure such horrors!:(
But you are at the right place, stay & find support, information, kindness & empathy:)
:hug:s

 

[MrsBeasley86]

I'm trying to stay positive. This site has been so helpful. I just found it yesterday and I already love it! I've been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks and dissociation for about 10 years. I got help and lived a normal life for 7 years. My meds quit and it all came back. My dr changed up my meds and I've been good for 3 years. And now it's all back again :(

 

[AnnaC]

May I ask are you in therapy?

 

[MrsBeasley86]

I just recently started. I've been 3 times so far. But this is the first therapist to diagnose me with ptsd. It's always just been anxiety.

 

[AnnaC]

That is a good thing because you will get the right kind of therapy specific to ptsd (hopefully):)
:hug:s & hang in there!

 

[MrsBeasley86]

I'm excited. I feel like they really want to help me and instead of just putting me on meds, they want to find the underlying cause. And one of the therapists there has done a lot of training with ptsd.

 

[AnnaC]

That is fantastic! I believe they will help you tremendously! :):tup: