Poll How Many Traumatic Incidents Have You Experienced?

[ricoforkids]

many rapes from age 8 to 10

nothing really after that. all other is just normal stuff everyone else experiences from time to time.

not only was the trauma of rape, intended suffocation but also being repeatedly threatened from telling anyone or harm will come to me and my family. one priest came to my classroom the first day of school which a week after the gang rape, now bishop, actually hit me with his knuckle on top of my head firmly. asked me if i told anyone. i said no.

that same week, age 9, i was taken to the dr's and diagnosed with an inflamed and irritated rectum, and vd. imagine at age 9. my father who is in medicine ignored it, was in denial or maybe was just like them.

i have two dr's of psychotherapy. i conned my mother and father to come to one visit. i separated them so that my father and i would meet alone with one therapist. my father slipped and admitted that i had vd and rectum problem at age nine. the dr asked my father why this didn't raise a red flag. my fathers response was he thought i was having an afair with the 22 yr old on our street. imagine 8 years old. i later found out and it is well known that the med dr who treated me was banned from going into the hospitals. have no idea why.

 

[ruggedfiber]

Too Many...

I replied to the survey "how many"...too many, I guess.

Sexually molested, physically abused, raped, ignored suicide attempt, emotionally abused (by husband), coerced abortions. They span far too many years.

It's manifested itself in some pretty nasty ways, including physically / biologically in symptoms of MS (the full boat). It's like I fried some circuits. Depression, fogs, cognitive issues, the works.

I only now realize that it's probably PTSD, but I"ve never been diagnosed. I think I'm getting better with some of the things that I"m doing for myself, but it seems like I relapse. Today sucked for instance.

Can I just keep going? Will I get better?

sigh...

 

[stillsad46]

I know the numbers are in the hundreds.

 

[FightingLily]

didn't know the term, thank you Anthony

complex PTSD is a label given to those only who have endured generally a type of trauma; say someone who was in an abusive relationship for 5 years, and suffered beatings, etc for that entire time.

I always wondered what "complex PTSD" meant, thank you for the info.

I voted many incidents. While married to my ex, the abuse was gradual over the four years. He got increasing violent as time passed until he inflicted the most severe beating on my official "trauma date".

 

[Seychelle]

I voted many incidents. I don't know what to count as an incident. If I just count separate body memories, then probably around 40 or 50 of physical and sexual assaults from when I was a baby to maybe around age 10? Plus a sexual assault at knifepoint when I was 19. But then there's also prolonged starvation at around age 12, and emotional abuse the whole time I was living at home till I was 20.

It's weird seeing that written down in black and white. Part of me still wants to believe that I had a normal childhood and that nothing is wrong with me now. Denial can be amazingly strong.

 

[void]

respectfully having only one traumatic incident does not make you a freak nor does having dozens. these event were not our idea. may your suffering decrease!

 

[redtriskell]

Can't figure how to vote because...

My experiences were too numerous to count- the mere thought is laughable. I regularly had sleep deprivation, little food, physical activities to the point of physical collapse, rape, torture practices, being poisoned, other sexual acts, forced to participate in the slaughter of small animals- especially pets, required to memorize vast expanses of literature-dictionaries-poetry (and woe betide if I got anything wrong), cleaning tasks too revolting to describe, verbal assault, mental manipulations of all kinds, plus the ever-present threat of my immanent death. I once had a bruise the shape of a gun barrel in my forehead for a week... but I digress. I can't vote because all of this took place constantly, without respite, for 7 years. And then he died. And since then, the only thing that is trauma to me is my history. I am one of very few incest survivors who has never been re-victimized. For which I am profoundly grateful. red

 

[Hollow]

I voted "many incidents".. And I feel like a freak too, if that's of any comfort to anyone. I keep on thinking that the things I have survived, well- anyone could. And I feel like such a sissy for letting it bring me down! I sometimes wish that it was just one single incident, 'cause in my mind, that would be easier to cope with. Just one event to haunt me, instead of several, just floating in my mind, making a mess...

 

[guyruss]

The trigger that haunts me the most in my life isnt even the scariest thing in Iraq that I dealt with. It just convinces me that our minds are unpredictable about what can finnally cause the break. Thats why i get so ashamned and angry about my ptsd cause it was nothing compared to other events or what other soldiers went through

 

[Mary Elynne]

I have suffered many, many traumas.... 19 years with a extremely violent and often potentially murderous father... then another 2 years of physical, mental and sexual abuse at the hands of my husband... then 16 years of living in fear of him finding us and killing us as he had tried before we were helped to safety... 12 years of isolation from family, community, ; left with only the clothes on our backs to start all over and not being able to contact anyone from home until just recently.

 

[SoulComa]

I've had many incidents during my whole life. It started when I was a very little kid (I'm not quite sure but probably at the age of 2 or 3)... up to the age of 16, when I moved away from the people doing that to me, and then i had another incident when I was 27.

 

[midi]

When it all stopped, is when I stopped....

That's exactly how it happened with me too. I survived a lot of different incidents until the last surgery and that's when I broke down and couldn't get up again.