How Much Stress Before You're Out?

[Notsowild]

Lets see ... I had the physically and sexually abusive childhood and abusive marriage then I had the car accident which brought more anxiety plus other issues. Then I got the verbally abusive boss. Now I have a landlord whose harassing us about moving even though we have a years lease. He wants to sell the place ( we just moved in June 1st) I got so angry with him that I sent him a letter not to verbally contact me. I will be seeing a lawyer tomorrow.

But I'm just so stressed I don't know how much I can take before I breakdown. I can't keep living like this. Does life ever get easier?

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi notsowild,

If you are like me, when you think you can take no more you just get this extra strength, that somehow gets you through normally to the next big hump in life, but you just seem to get there, I don't know how but we are still here and getting over those humps just take them on one hump at a time. Be strong you can do it
Take care

 

[youngvetdude]

I sometimes get into similar situations and I keep going because of I stop I will just be making it harder on myself in the long run so dont give up and continue. BUT I have to watch myself and not use my anger as fuel because of I do after my rough patch is over no one wants to be around me and if they are around me their pissed off since I have taken it out on them. It is a crazy balance act I am still working on.

 

[Friday]

Easier?

There are times in my life where the only thing I have to do is what's right in front of me.

I love that.

It rarely matters what the one thing is... As long as it doesn't come packed in a 20 year bag with everything else I'm also currently dealing with. It's soooooooo much easier to just have to deal with one thing at a time. OMG. It's this eyes roll back in your head blissful thing. Done. Done. Done. Done. Loooooooooooooove the "one thing". It's like a giant red easy button falling from the sky.

When I'm not doing well, then it's never one thing. It's 20 years of things all sumo wrestler'd up and jumping on me. One sumo I could dodge, or wiggle my way out from under. But not dozens of the suckers. Drowned. Squashed. Laid out.

When I'm doing well...that's when I get the one thing.
Or even one thing after another. I can do that, too.

Doesn't seem fair, really. It's when I'm doing well that I could possibly handle 20 years of nonsense. But then again, it may actually be the definition of doing badly that I've got 20 years of nonsense I'm trying to deal with concurrently as my daily life.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Several times in the last year I have thought "I can't take any more". I have begged for it to stop. I wondered how much more can go wrong. And then one more thing goes wrong and I think I will completely surrender. But I haven't. I put one foot in front of the other. I force myself to get through each moment starting with that awful moment of forcing myself out of bed in the morning.

Easier? I don't know about easier, but every now and then I get a glimpse of why I keep trying. Suddenly the sound of children laughing enters in through the pain and I think, this is worth continuing. Or I smell fresh woodsy air and think, ah, I will be okay. Look for something good in the midst of the struggles and the pain. That might make it a little easier to keep going.