I Voted 2-3 hours
That's a day ... and it's probably more. How else would you explain 80+ posts in a month!
There are rare days when I have to take a break because I'm questioning my reason for being here. At first, it was because I was so lost regarding my dear husband and what he was going through. Lately, I'm finding that I'm identifying more with the sufferers than I am the carers. Transference?
I've had some things happen to me in the past that I felt comfortable classifying as "dealt with" and put behind me. Others have posted things that I can relate to on a much deeper level than one of a carer.
Also, I'm finding that I'm getting to know the people here and divining their personalities. I'm getting strength from some, the power to face difficult struggles from others, and awe inspiring insights into the power of survival from just about everyone.
I've learned to be more patient with my dear husband's mood swings and range of emotions from one hour to the next. I've cherished the support and outreach of total strangers that I'm missing from the closest person in my world.
So EVERY day, with rare exceptions, I visit to get the new posts and read how everyone is doing. I post depending on my frame of mind, restraining myself when able, from posting during those times when my day has overshadowed my tolerance levels thus making me a mite "bitchy."
I applaud this forum for making me calmer in the face of my dear husband's PTSD and helping me understand that often, just sitting with him in the same room, each doing our own thing, is actually helping him to trust that I'm not judging him for his symptoms anymore. Our fights have lessened from almost daily to a couple a month now.
So, long-winded me, getting back to the point here...I think Anthony and Nicolette has a cot somewhere in a corner of the forum for me LOL.
Shutting up now...
HUGS
Robyn
