How To Deal With The Mental Stuff Together With "real" Medical Problems??

[Smile]

So I'm supposed to be up and moving back to Florida tomorrow. I have health insurance here but not in FL so trying to get all medical stuff taken care of before leaving.

Went to GI today and am now scheduled for an endoscopy tomorrow. Which means my departure date is pushed off... Either by 1 day or... Who knows?

Soooo anxious. 4 mg's of Xanax so far today. Let's hope no more. But I know I'll have to take extra tomorrow too because the test isn't until 5 pm!

A massive part of me wants them to find something and tell me I have two months to live. That way I can party without a care in the world. But knowing my luck, they'll find nothing and then I'll beat myself up by telling myself this test was just a delay tactic because I'm scared of being on my own again.

Ahhhh! I don't think my title matches my post but... There u go... Just what's on my mind. Feeling scared.

 

[hodge]

I'm thinking good thoughts for you, Smile, and keeping you in my prayers. Let us know how it comes out, okay?

 

[driftaway]

Sounds like added stress, the endoscapy. I'm glad you have meds to help manage your anxiety. Let us know how it turns out, we will be thinking about you.

 

[Smile]

Thanks guys... Means a lot to me. So I have stomach ulcers & am awaiting biopsy results... Now trying NOT to think about it :)

 

[cjhays]

So I'm supposed to be up and moving back to Florida tomorrow. I have health insurance here but not in FL s...

Wishing you the best. How did it turn out ?

 

[Smile]

Still haven't received biopsy results yet... Will let u know. Thanks so much... The concern means the world to me!

 

[Freedomfighter]

Thanks guys... Means a lot to me. So I have stomach ulcers & am awaiting biopsy results... Now trying NOT...

I think if you have PTSD your physical health suffers too, and I think that PTSD patients have to guard their health no matter what. And that is exactly what I am doing today.
I get vision disturbances so I can hardly see when PTSD sets in strongly, experiencing them right now, so I know I better take a step back before it gets worse.