I feel like I’ve made a lot of progress in the three years since I started my recovery. I am grateful for what’s present. I can receive love more than before. I can say no or yes and mean it. I can be aware of myself for significant amounts of time every day.
Currently the intrusive negative thoughts are draining though. Every day, but especially in the morning and in intervals throughout the day. They don’t have the weight that they used to, but they are so persistent! I must have laid down a thick rope of neurons dedicated to negative thoughts in my past.
I am writing to ask for ideas and strategies which have brought you some relief, even if temporary.
Strategies I use:
+ Countering with a positive message
+ Moving my body
Maybe I just need to keep doing those things but I would like to know of anything else that might help.
Something which I think might help, but haven’t tried yet, is setting aside time to give myself positive messages every day, rather than just using the positive messages when I need to battle the negative thoughts. I can feel the resistance in my chest to doing something like that, but it’s an idea.
I am so sorry that you are having to go through all of this. These are some of the things that I do that work for me. It will take some practice. First of all, your mind is sometimes your worst enemy; therefore, you shouldn't believe everything that it says.Ice-cold/ warm showers.. alternately. Reaching a certain heart rate when fitness training.
Never a good plan. You tap on it with a finger and it kicks back like a mule....I want my T to just force it out of me, but I think she doesn’t want to destabilize me, which makes sense.