Is this an intrusive thought or am I hallucinating or something more?

[Warrior Sunflower]

I freaked out when my mom had the episodes (at least that’s what I think it is, she acts the same as if she was drunk or taking her ADHD medication but she not drinking or taking her ADHD medication anymore, maybe there’s another cause I’m missing?). But when I came back to my room and it didn’t feel like it was my thoughts but I heard “Kill her” in my head. Like sure, the episodes might slowly be destroying me but I don’t want her dead. She’s not only the episodes. I want the episodes to die not her.

 

[Jade-]

I think you need to reach out for professional help in order to get past these " episodes"

 

[Sideways]

I think you need to reach out for professional help in order to get past these " episodes"

Couldn’t agree more. Irrespective of whether it was an intrusive voice or a hallucination, the stuff you’re trying to deal with isn’t something you should have to deal with alone.

 

[arfie]

in my own case, i attribute episodes like this to rage. i have let my anger escalate to full rage and anger channeling, alone, is not enough. in my own case, dealing with rage is not a do-it-yourself job. i need at least one supporter to provide me reality checks and outside perspectives, etc. it doesn't seem to matter much whether the supporter(s) are pro or peer. the grounding elements seem to be the important part. there is safety in numbers. i seek more than one source of support for my rage episodes. it takes a village to live a healthy life.

but that is me and every case is unique.

steadying support while you sort your own case.

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

Seems like a typical intrusive thought, from my experience. You definitely shouldn’t be dealing with this alone, though.