Hypervigilent

[Eroga]

When a special someone goes to touch me in any way, I jump, I can't hold hands, I can't make eye contact. My ptsd is interfering with my ability to be intimate. He is loving and understanding, but I see the pain in his eyes. I don't know when or if I will ever be ready to move forward in the relationship and yet I do love him.

 

[Opahe]

I jump if someone touches my shoulder.

I gave a nurse a black eye in the hospital when she went to go take my vitals trying not to wake me in the middle of the night and I hit her just as an impulse or not thinking reaction (can't think of the word). I felt so bad. My Dr woke me in the morning by standing back and saying my name softly and increasing his volume little by little. He was a sweet understanding Dr. I miss him!

This is normal. It will get better.

 

[Hewut]

Any history of abuse in your relationship?