Sufferer I am a complete stranger even here - vague memories of childhood & abusive marriage

[Anana]

Hello people. i am not in my best state now but at least i managed to post here. Sorry for my mistakes, English is not my native language. Happy that I found you here. I mean im not happy that there are so many people who suffer but finally it a bit relieved my fears and a lot of ????? what is going with me and that i am not the only one who have this hell in head, in body, in each piece of myself though even the mySelf is disappeared often. My story as it appeared, is like one of yours, vague memories of childhood, and 10 years of abusive marriage. And now im completely lost here. Most therapist here even dont know what cptsd is, so in the beginning of my therapy i was treated for depression then GAD etc but i had much more than that, i had nobody to help me so i had to study. and now it is better because i at least know the "enemy" but im completely alone here. Nobody who is an expert in it, nobody just to support me or hug . And even here, iam a stranger from another country, a person who everywhere feels abnormal

 

[barefoot]

Welcome to the forum @Anayana - glad you found us!

 

[mumstheword]

Welcome :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:@Anayana. No you are certainly not alone here. I hope you can feel part of this community. Tragic as it is, what brought us all here, it is a good place.:)

 

[Anana]

I appreciate your welcome words:)

 

[littleoc]

I’m glad but found us too! But equally sad for the reasons you’re here.

My favorite thing about this site is being constantly reminded that I’m not alone in any way. There is always someone like me or who understands.

I hope this site helps you :)