I am an ex sex worker - facing up to something I've been running away from

[hithere]

Nothing to be ashamed about.

Just because somewhere is not offering other chances to earn money, and people be broke and wanna live their lives, does not make those people at fault. Organizing, smart, looking through options, willing to risk hence courageous, damned caring for something o someone they do it for... yes. Shameful, no.

it has nothing to do about shame and everything to do with power and control,. you really have no idea what I'm going. No judgement on you, and I help other young women and men out -- but the complexities of my situation are by no means simple or easy

 

[Ronin]

I would be careful of assuming who has, or has not, a hint of an idea of anything.

Some times, words of support aint from a place of ignorance.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I saw this post a while ago and have avoided it.


I never sold myself, but I almost did. I was right there and chickened out at the last minute. I needed money to Kay bulls, it was the only option I could think of and felt worthless as if was, so who cared really?

Even coming as close as I did pretty much broke me. I went home and tried to kil myself.

I didn’t follow through, but the shame I feel for even considering it consumes me. I can’t even tell my therapist about it.

the first time for me I became an alcoholic to cope with it, but I did not feel as much degraded as I was angry at being forced into sex work for little money out of the need to not starve having been made homeless following a year and a half of institutional abuse.

I did go into sex work again in the 90's to prevent becoming homeless, but that paid well, and I had a pimp to screen the johns collect the money over the phone and make sure we were protected. This time however I did feel degraded because no one was was involved in forcing me into my situation.