I Am Furious

[femaleveteran]

What gives anyone the right that they think they should know everything about you right from the get gop. And then if you do not tell them everything right from the beginning they assume you are hiding something or not being truthful or that you do not really have pTSd. What am I supposed to talk about nearly being blown to bits by an IED...am I supposed to explain the smell fo the explosion and the bodies burning....am I supposed to explain how while injured I had to pull my driver out of our burning humvee?
am I supposed to explain all the other terrible crap that happened while I served three and and ahalf tours in that god forsaken hellhole of a sandTRAP...and that is what is was...a.sand box is something kids PLAY in/...IRAQ was a SAND TRAP.

Sorry, I needed to vent as someone has seriously questioned my integrity and I needed to do it on this board. If I offended anyone then I apologize. but I will Be DAMNED to hell if anyone will ever say I do not have PTSD> It is officially diagnosed and in the USA that is not an easy diagnosis to get so whoever wants to question it can kiss my BASS>
FV

 

[KP the nut]

I have sent you a PM, I hope that is OK.

Hang in, I never doubted you
KP

 

[Heather]

Sorry you were invalidated. I feel your :mad::x3::x3::x3:.

And we hate'em!

Hope that helps.

Hugs. Heather

 

[The Albatross]

I can understand why, having gone through all you have... that you would be angry. I hope you're feeling better soon, and glad you could "get this off your chest".

 

[complexmind]

Anger is absolutely the PERFECT response in so many situations! You should be angry for being disrespected so badly. Nicely done!

 

[femaleveteran]

i dont know about anger. I went for a four hour drive in the mountains, close to where I live (eve though I am not allowed to drive for anlther 2 weeks at least)....but anyway I drove out of anger but I drove well and I needed that drive after being stuck at home for nearly a month andthen in and out of the hospital with my leg, I had no option but to get away. I feel nothing but peace and frankly whoever I was angry with now means nothing. My fiance, my future husband and current best partner in life is all that matters to me and i know i m lucky to have him. he is all that i need want desire abd care truly for.

I think that is enough for me

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((((femaleveteran)))))))

THANK YOU for your service.

May you find support, validation, safety, healing, strength, and hope here.

Glad you're getting that stuff out. Perfectly valid feelings, all of it.

May your healing be more vast than the desert sands....

 

[Sqweak]

Oh (((femaleveteran)))), I've realized something in these past couple of years is that I have nothing to prove. Not to my physicians, not to my friends- anybody and as far as I’m concerned if someone can't take what I’m saying as truth then you can kiss my ass. I understand completely where you're coming from and you have every right to be angry. Those who doubt your words simply don't understand it's not your job to make them see things the way you do (though it would be nice some times). Thank you for everything you've done for our country there are plenty of people who can't say they've contributed as much as you have and we're sincerely grateful. :inlove:

Take care of yourself.

 

[alixipain]

{{{{{FEMALE VET}}}}} Civies don't understand the bull’s eye on our backs. Been there (desert shield/storm, Bosnia) many think my shakes are from shell shock. Fear is having a RPG over the left shoulder, and multiple attempts of suicide. You have every right to vent when they question it. Hell I would stand beside you as you do! I applaud you and solute you for serving and venting! I still to this day upchuck to the scent of burnt rubber! But never mind them and pay attention to yourself and your significant other!

 

[Srain]

You just take care of you and do what you need to for you. If you come here, do it for you not anyone else. There are all kinds of ways to read things and sometimes words can be read the wrong way or the person writing them has their reason for saying them, either for themselves or for other reasons - but we can take them or leave them. As you said, nobody really knows another on here, that's always risky but at the same time it can be a blessing for those of us stuck in places looking for support and unable to find it.

I'm glad you were able to find your ground and I hope it is where you can continue to recover. Please be well.

Rain

 

[Reclusive]

No one should feel like they're required to disclose their entire past - or even parts of it (the usual exceptions apply). I completely agree with everyone else - if anyone says anything questioning your PTSD, they don't deserve your confidence.

 

[anni]

I'm sorry I missed whatever this was which was so dismissive and invalidating. It's whiftiness on my part, but if I'd seen it would have said 'something'. No idea what, it's just idiotic to call anyones diagnosis into question, good God. It's appalling, and cannot imagine. I see you've worked this out now, with what seems to be characteristic resolve and strength. I only say this from what I've seen of your posts- am not surprised you've been able to leave this person in the proverbial dust.

I hope there's more peace for you today, and healing also.