I Am So Tired!!!

[dhawkins78412]

I was a little confused reading some of the posts. I didn't read you self diagnosed yourself...but anyway. I'm glad you're out of the relationship you were in. I know you hurt and being told you're not manly/womanly enough is quite a blow to your ego. Try to stay away from negative people.

There's usually a low cost mental health facility in your town. I don't know how large your town is. There might even be groups, but you'd have to look around for them.

Hang in there, and I think you'll get some "therapy" from the forum.

 

[Nylen22]

She Cat it is fine. I am sorry. I just am very frustrated because I am having a heck of a time at this current point in my life. Having a college degree and having to work jobs where I am only making $10.00 an hour with no benefits has been tough (I made a lot more $ with the job I had in college). I want to get help but all of my money is going into paying my student loans, paying for my past OCD treatment, food, and apartment. My PTSD doesn't help me get a job either. The anxiety during interviews makes things very difficult.

Aine about the support group. I am currently in a support group in Sacramento, CA. I actually kind of helped start it. It is for sure helpful, but with me being one of the leaders of the group and one of the only males it can be difficult at times. I say it can be difficult being one of the only guys because pretty much all of the woman in the group were abused at some point by a man. At times when they get going it is tough to keep them off of the man bashing parade, which is not helpful to me.

 

[blackpearl]

Welcome to the forum Nylen22

It can feel like walking on a minefield, but I guess one gets use to be super focused and always keep in mind why the other one might be here for. I find it challenging to deal with others and not only my own stress.

I want to say Samuel that I wasn't questioning if it was true, more that it for me sounded unbelievable because I have been fighting to get help for five hard years not been taken seriously.

I hope you Nylen22 will find something that helps you on your hard road to a healthier life and that you get better.

Welcome !

 

[Deleted member 541]

Nylen...Apology accepted. And I do understand how frustrating it can be when dealing with finances....Right now I am in a tough situation too, and it looks like it will be getting worse for me very shortly as I learned today, I am losing yet another customer soon because she is dying. That will be 3 in the past few weeks, and it is a HUGE hit on me. So, yes, I do understand your frustration as far as that goes.

With the other, as with the women and you being the only guy. Man that has to suck big time. But, it looks like you may just have to suck that one up. You can't very well tell them that man bashing is off limits, when they have been abused by men. But, it may be helpful for them to encourage them that not ALL men are pigs/creeps or whatever. That there are some really nice guys out there. I stopped looking, as I have always picked the losers, but I have had some male friends in the past that were great!!!!!

I was molested as a young child, and at 15 I was gang raped while I was in a drunken stupor. There was other abuse, but not dealing with men. I don't hate all men, but I do agree, that some men are just assholes, and worthless. There are good ones out there, they just need to be able to figure out who they are, and to stay away from the jerks!!!!!!

 

[Samuel]

No problem.

I hope you manage to find a way to get the help you need. Welcome to the forum. It can be really helpful.

Samuel

 

[sunshine35]

Bobby--Have you ever thought about going on disability? I know it's hard. I've been on it for five years. But the health insurance is good until the no-pre-existing conditions thing kicks in in 2014. I'm poor, but I have a good doc and a decent life.

It's a thought. Community organizations can help you with the paperwork for free.

 

[Nylen22]

Sunshine I have thought about going on disability, but I feel like I am failing if I do. From a logical stand point probably a good idea. I do appreciate the idea however and I will think it over.

 

[Iam]

How did you get diability Sunshine? I quit my high paying job because I just couldn't handle the stress anymore. I am now self employed but am finding that being in therapy and working thru all this crap that I am not able to focus on work. I have always been independent and pretty much supported our family for the last 15-20 years. Our expenses are fairly low now, own our home, no car payments etc........but we still have them and I am just barely keeping my head above water paying for my work expenses. I know that if I could concentrate that I could make this business successful.....but I just can't seem to do the work right now. Heck even my house is a mess and I have always kept that up.

I've heard it can take 2 years to get disability. I would feel bad about getting it, but I sure have paid into the system enough and I just can't work right now.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Iam,

I am facing the situation and am also self employed. I think I will start a new thread on this.

Intothelight