I am trying... but whenever i do end up angry & frustrated.

[saraemerald]

I was also very good in school and it was not cool to the other kids so when I was in middle school, I purposely got worse grades than I could have so I could fit in. I also noticed that since school and the religion (or the bible) came easy to me, my peers would come to me for answers to stuff but not for friendship and that hurt my feelings a lot, but I still tried to remain positive despite all this and know somehow, when I grew up and moved out pf my abusive household, things would get better but NO.....

 

[saraemerald]

I was also very good in school and it was not cool to the other kids so when I was in middle school...

And that is another f#&king sad story but I don't have time to get in to detail now. Thank you all for listening amd goodnight.

 

[saraemerald]

And that is another f#&king sad story but I don't have time to get in to detail now. Thank you all...

Simply said, Ive just about had enough of it all!!!! Cuz Ive been through enougj sh*t to share with all. Lol. Trying to find some humor in all this bullsh*t.

 

[turtlemoon]

Hey, you are allowed to have emotions. Anger, bitterness, and resentment included. Instead of trying to fight it, which I don't know about you but that never works for me, maybe try aknowledging and accepting it for what it is and remind yourself you are allowed to feel those things?

I think part of what keeps our thoughts in control of us sometimes is the battle we wage constantly to shut them off.

Also... I have chosen to direct my anger politically. Because you are right, it isn't fair when abusers walk away while their victims have to deal with the aftermath. I have started directing some of my own bitterness into letters to elected officials concerning things around this. Funding for survivors, etc. Feels at least like I am making use of it, regardless of who I did or did not vote for those letters and stuff, especially at the local level can actually mean something. Just a thought, probably wont help everyone but eh.