Hi everyone. My name is Jaye. I am 22 years old. In 2019 I was diagnosed with PTSD due to sexual trauma when I was 11 and physical/emotional/verbal abuse I encountered by my stepmom at ages 10-14. I got on medication and went to therapy. It seemed like the therapy helped quite a bit. The meds were helping me sleep and calming my panic attacks. I felt as if it were finally managed. I had managed this diagnosis that I thought (in my naive brain) only soldiers had got. Once I finally was told I had PTSD and began treatment, life became more manageable.
Until now.
It’s currently September of 2022. In July I started seeing this girl. In nearly 4 weeks she had started making me feel bad for not wanting to have sex and became very harsh towards me for it. I broke things off as this was triggering my past. Upon cutting ties, she began calling/texting upwards of 100-200 times a day. Even after blocking her number she’d use other phones and a lot of different fake numbers. Now she’s calling off a blocked number. After I ignored all this she broke into my house while I was the only person home. Ironically I was asleep when this took place. I was physically unharmed but emotionally scarred. She told me very ugly things and threats when I kicked her out. A few nights later I walk outside to find her in my truck. I have pressed a restraining order, and waiting for the charges to go through for her breaking into my property. Even with the restraining order in place, it doesn’t help. She’s still contacting me. She drives by my home and yells out the window as she passes (cops say I can’t do anything as it’s a public highway). She’s threatened me and my family via social media. I’ve turned everything in and no charges have went through yet. Apparently I’ll get a call from my detective once they do.
On my end I’m noticing all my PTSD symptoms returning. I am terrified to go anywhere as we live in a small town with one Walmart and a couple fast food restaurants and a school. I feel like I’ll run into her if I leave my house. My anxiety is at an all time high so now I’m having to get back on my anxiety meds. I can’t sleep. I’ve been staying up at night and take a quick nap while my sister is over doing school work. Last night was the first night I’ve been able to get myself to sleep and I woke up in a full panic attack screaming because I dreamed of her breaking into my home and hurting me.
I’m exhausted. I live in a remote area so I don’t have many therapy options currently. I am tired of being scared and jumpy all the time. I miss sleep. I just don’t know where to turn at this point so I looked up support groups and found this forum.
I hope this helps and I’m able to give back to the community as well.
Until now.
It’s currently September of 2022. In July I started seeing this girl. In nearly 4 weeks she had started making me feel bad for not wanting to have sex and became very harsh towards me for it. I broke things off as this was triggering my past. Upon cutting ties, she began calling/texting upwards of 100-200 times a day. Even after blocking her number she’d use other phones and a lot of different fake numbers. Now she’s calling off a blocked number. After I ignored all this she broke into my house while I was the only person home. Ironically I was asleep when this took place. I was physically unharmed but emotionally scarred. She told me very ugly things and threats when I kicked her out. A few nights later I walk outside to find her in my truck. I have pressed a restraining order, and waiting for the charges to go through for her breaking into my property. Even with the restraining order in place, it doesn’t help. She’s still contacting me. She drives by my home and yells out the window as she passes (cops say I can’t do anything as it’s a public highway). She’s threatened me and my family via social media. I’ve turned everything in and no charges have went through yet. Apparently I’ll get a call from my detective once they do.
On my end I’m noticing all my PTSD symptoms returning. I am terrified to go anywhere as we live in a small town with one Walmart and a couple fast food restaurants and a school. I feel like I’ll run into her if I leave my house. My anxiety is at an all time high so now I’m having to get back on my anxiety meds. I can’t sleep. I’ve been staying up at night and take a quick nap while my sister is over doing school work. Last night was the first night I’ve been able to get myself to sleep and I woke up in a full panic attack screaming because I dreamed of her breaking into my home and hurting me.
I’m exhausted. I live in a remote area so I don’t have many therapy options currently. I am tired of being scared and jumpy all the time. I miss sleep. I just don’t know where to turn at this point so I looked up support groups and found this forum.
I hope this helps and I’m able to give back to the community as well.