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I just want you to know that The fears and doubts that you are going through is so very much me. My first therapist left me. She actually passed me on to my current T, who is a huge blessing in my life. I have a pretty strong fear of her leaving. She tells me that it is trauma linked and that betrayal by seemingly nice people and abandonment are huge feelings that I need to deal with. It is actually part of the plan for tomorrow and knowing that, it stirs up more fears. I sent her an email asking for reassurance about tomorrow and she replied with reminders of some tools and reminded me that I get the biggest vote on what we decide to do. I hate worrying that she will disappear into thin air, but I do. I try to remember that it is trauma related feelings and should get better as I heal.