I Can't Believe I've Come This Far

[Iam]

Wow, it seems like forever since I have been here on the forum. Things are going great. Really can't believe how far I have come. A couple of weeks back we finished doing EMDR on when I was raped at 7. On the way home I realized that the knot that has been in my left shoulder for as long as I can remember was gone. EMDR has been so incredibly successful for me. My mother is doing her psycho crap again and I have had none of the physical symptoms of distress that I always used to have. I am blown away by how asymptomatic I am now. And when I do have symptoms I am able to get them quickly under control.

Obviously much of it has to do with therapy, both CBT and EMDR. This forum was invaluable in my getting through this as well. Anthony's post on depression not being a chemical imbalance in people with PTSD, that it is instead behavioral depression caused by anxiety was invaluable to me. It helped me to recognize that what I thought was depression was actually anxiety. When I understood that all of a sudden it all clicked and as a result I have been able to reroute my thoughts when the anxiety first starts.

I believe I am almost done with EMDR and am actually in the termination stage (albeit slowly) with my regular T. Wow.....it's been a long hard 2 years, but oh so worth it. I feel alive and like I have a happy, productive life again!

Thanks to all here who have helped so much. You know who you are I hope ;)

 

[Gamereign555]

Your story and experience is inspirational to me. I feel I still have so much to learn because I feel great for months sometimes and then suddenly I feel overloaded with situations that require my decision, depressed and reduced to nothing and begin to panic. I have just found that there is more I need to discuss with my therapist because something in my life has suddenly become a seemingly unmanageable issue. I have been coming here for 4 months and I will continue to do so, there is yet some things I need to read and understand. I have met some very good people here. I like to give my advice and help others, but by far the best thing I have found here is the support and understanding others have provided me when I have needed it and the stellar help I have seen given to others by people here.

 

[Srain]

Congratulations Iam! :)

I'm so happy to read this as it gives me continued hope on the road to easing my symptoms, which I DO believe can be done. I'm glad read your success and know you had to have worked very hard for it. I so appreciate your sharing this!

I hope you have planned to do something nice for yourself, you earned it, you own it.
peace,
Rain

 

[KP the nut]

(((Iam)))

That is wonderful news. EMDR has had the same affect on me. I only have one session left. It is scary to not have it there but like you I am able to manage symptoms and triggers. I also agree with you about the forum, the information and support is invaluable.

I feel as if I have my life back, I hope you feel the same.

Onwards and upwards girlfriend.

Linking arms

 

[intothelight]

Iam,

That is wonderful news. Thank you so much for sharing with us. The one thing that people can never have enough of is hope. To see people overcome adversity, learn to manage their PTSD, and live happy lives is something I think we can't see enough of.

I hope it continues to get better for you everyday. You deserve no less.

Deb

 

[The Albatross]

So glad Iam that you are realizing successes and that physical stress holding is subsiding. Thanks for sharing with us, and keep that progress rolling! Such great news! :tup:

 

[mamachick]

That is wonderful. Thanks for posting, very encouraging and hopeful for all.

 

[Nighthawk]

Iam what more can one ask for. I am so proud of you and encourage by you.

NH

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Iam- Hello!- that's so wonderful for you!!!
:):tup::inlove:
-xoxoxox

 

[Froggie]

Really happy for you Iam, your post / thread does good and gives hope.

 

[Iam]

Awww thanks so much ladies. I told Bloom....I am hoping it lasts. For now I will just enjoy the peace and happiness. When the past invades I should continue to be able to get it under control fairly quickly. I hope so anyway ;) Problem is....after that post, will I be embarrassed to admit if I slip? I hope not.

 

[Lucycat]

This is brilliant news.

I am 18 months into therapy and have no idea how much longer it will continue. I had a fantastic EMDR session this week, and am still on cloud nine! I don't know if I will have any more. My T has said lets just wait and see. If something crops up then we will go with that, but otherwise he is happy to let things be just now. I have no appointments scheduled, but the ball is in my court. I can just call, and he will come running ( slowly!!).

Isn't it wonderful just to 'feel good'?