I can't do all this

[sun seeker]

And it isn't even all that much I have to do. I just can't handle my life. Today just needing to get to someplace with a printer and print out a document to send somewhere in time is putting me over the edge, and I know that's because I'm having issues with my medication and either not sleeping or taking too much and feeling drugged... but the actual demands on my time are not really that much. So why does it all feel like too much?

I didn't know whether to put this under anxiety or depression. How about a forum for "overwhelmed?"

I want to self harm. I'm trying not to, but I really want to. I hate this feeling of "I'm not enough. I can't do this."

Some of the things I used to have that comforted me, I don't have anymore. So back to feeling the anguish under the distractions. It's too much. Way too much. It has to come out somehow.

Yes, I am going to see a doctor about the medication, but I don't know how much they can do.

I feel like there's something inside me that wants to explode.

I have friends who are super helpful, but they have their own problems and I don't want to tire them out.

One more thing... just one more thing... I can't do this.

Everything feels too stimulating. Too demanding. Every touch, every sound, grates on my nerves. I want to get away from my body. Just be somewhere with no demands and rest.

Uggh. I'm going back to bed and see if that helps.

 

[GardenGirl0214]

I can relate! I was in a similar situation a few weeks ago. I did need a med adjustment, but now I'm having trouble with my sleep due to daylight savings time. Do you have a therapist? Try to take one task at a time, if you feel yourself getting agitated, take a break and try doing some deep breathing, or maybe going for a walk. That one always helps me.

Here's hoping you feel better soon.

 

[Kintsugi]

And it isn't even all that much I have to do. I just can't handle my life... but the actual demands on my time are not really that much. So why does it all feel like too much?

Heed your stress cup, Sun Seeker, and remember that it's quite loaded with your PTSD.

I didn't know whether to put this under anxiety or depression. How about a forum for "overwhelmed?"

This is a PTSD forum. All the sections are for "stressed" and overwhelmed. ;)

I want to self harm. I'm trying not to, but I really want to. I hate this feeling of "I'm not enough. I can't do this."

For me, this is when doing a small, manageable chunk of productivity comes in. It feels like an achievement yet doesn't push me over the edge.

 

[hangingon]

I can relate more than you know. I do not have PTSD. But I do have anxiety and bouts of depression. The last few months I have barely been getting through the day. My house has bare minimum done to it, looks like its been ransacked at times. I run around getting a bunch of nothing done. I am so overwhelmed to the point I get nothing accomplished. It is extremely tempting to lay in bed and not get up. . . Its a never ending cycle it seems. I have to work really hard to maintain a positive outlook. I have to force myself to do some exercise. I find that if I expend some energy that way, I get more energy the next time around. But it is hard to keep going at times. I have also sat & wrote down all my blessings. I start off with things about me then move outward. Such as the ability to walk, to see, that I am in fairly good health, that I have a roof over my head, food to eat, etc then I go further outward with blessings such as that I live on a safe street, have a car, my kids are healthy, etc. By the time I'm done I have a pretty long list, all of which are reasons to keep moving forward

 

[EveHarrington]

Just checking in..... Are you feeling any better?

 

[sun seeker]

Not really. The list of things overwhelming me is even longer, plus I'm not sleeping. I do see how it's the already present stress of PTSD and not that what needs to be done is really so much, but I still don't seem to be able to cope with it all.

Thanks for asking. I appreciate your thinking of me!

 

[Anniebananie]

I hear you. Especially the medication roller coaster. I have been having weird panic attacks the last few months because my shrink never fills my medication in time so I keep going cold turkey.

Do you have any pets? I have a little dog and I know for a FACT I would not be here if it weren't for him. He helps me have a schedule, he gets me out of the house for exercize, I talk to people when I'm walking him, and he makes me laugh. If you like animals, find some to pet. It's great for getting your mind off things and very relaxing.

And, just make it to bedtime each day. Tomorrow will be different. Maybe not better maybe not worse, but not today.

(((Hugs to you)))

 

[hangingon]

I hope you're having a good Easter

 

[Nevermore]

Phew. Sunseeker, I hope you're feeling better!
I just had to go and do some printing myself and also had a major anxiety attack. It was awful. I was so anxious I dropped everything, including my purse and the money went everywhere.
I think I was panicking that I was panicking! It seemed so out of place, just trying to get stuff printed out and I couldn't understand why I felt so out of control!
God! I hate it! Never seem to know when or why it's going to happen.
I felt better reading your post though - not so alone.
Thank you! I hope yours has passed now