theshadowoftheliving
MyPTSD Pro
Is this normal? Can normal people imagine themselves alive in the future?
I've only ever been able to plan for the future in an abstract way, imagining myself alive the way I can imagine robots on the moon or something else absurd. I'm not sure its a wish to die, persay, but just a fundamental disconnect between my life as it is now and the potential of a life in the future.
And if I'm just waiting around to die, this whole life seems pointless and I should just hurry up and kill myself and get it over with.
I'm not trying to be dramatic, but I know it sounds that way. I just need some meaning or some hope to convince me I shouldn't just accelerate this process.
I've only ever been able to plan for the future in an abstract way, imagining myself alive the way I can imagine robots on the moon or something else absurd. I'm not sure its a wish to die, persay, but just a fundamental disconnect between my life as it is now and the potential of a life in the future.
And if I'm just waiting around to die, this whole life seems pointless and I should just hurry up and kill myself and get it over with.
I'm not trying to be dramatic, but I know it sounds that way. I just need some meaning or some hope to convince me I shouldn't just accelerate this process.