I Cant Seem To Lower Increased Anxiety No Matter What I Do....help!

[lostforgottensoul]

This one is long-ish, but you could give it a try:

I only listened to about 5 mins, cuz lunch is almost over, but i will need to give it a try like on a break or lunch or at home. I can see it putting me to sleep, which would be awesome cuz i have the hardest time sleeping & staying asleep.

Today anxiety wasnt too bad, i took my morning dose of xanax 30 mins before work as i always do & then i felt my heart start to race, was hard to breath, shaking, all the stuff that happens when anxiety starts at about 3; i work 12pm to 9pm...so that was an hr before lunch and before i normally take it. I took it then an hr later it started again.

Now cuz i dont take it on my days off, i can take an extra one here or there but dont like to. I guess the good thing is, im trying my hardest to stay aware, not allow it to sneak up on me.

Like all things, the solution will take a little time to 'kick in'. Try introducing new things to your routine, and give them a week to work.

I miss my boring life! I told my therapist that when i first came in the room before i even said hi. It seems like im deeper thus everything is so much more intense.

Yeah, i want to try art again, see if i can do anything worth while. Thats awesome for anxiety. Also mixing up my routine is a good idea.

I think its the time of the year and its giving me more hell cuz i cant push it down or numb it...im in a new place then ive ever been previous years.

Do you think maybe skipping ahead, past the imagined safe place, in the DBT book is a good idea? Cuz im stuck there and so i havent done anything else, other than try to practice the diatracting things & self soothing though they arent distracting or soothing yet, my therapist says to keep doing it.

Maybe mixing up the 'processing' type books and start reading Risin' Strong that i havent read yet and then go back to the DBT book? Im stuck in the PTSD source book too & havent opened it in like a year so maybe go back to that too?

I seem to move in the books but then get stuck and cant get past a certian part.

 

[joeylittle]

Personally, I would not stay stuck on the safe place imagery. That's one tool that you are going to keep experimenting with. But you can keep trying it while you move on to other things.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Personally, I would not stay stuck on the safe place imagery. That's one tool that you are going to keep experimenting with. But you can keep trying it while you move on to other things.

Yeah, that was kinda my thought too. I cant force it, i cant "take what i get" and so i decided to just let it come back when it does. Just didnt know i would get what i needed from the remainder but im gonna skip it and move on then come back to it when i can.

Though Risin' Strong is sorta like the same thing named differently so im sure i'll get something from it, I feel the DBT book is more important as emotional regulation & distress tolerance is like hallmark of controling my anxiety at work.

I just fear the deeper i go, the harder this is gonna become.

Oh, i have an appointment with my psychristrist next Thursday after my therapist so we'll see if she'll give me seriquol with xanax to try it out. The people on the other site says it makes you tired for like ever and thats what Abilify did and im worried that if i take it at night, it wont help as much with the anxiety but we'll see, if she even does it.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Today I had a lady screaming at the top of her lungs, i lower the volume of my headset when they do that and try to speak lower & softer (like counter them) and my headset was the lowest it would go & it was still loud and she was muffling herself ahe was screaming so loud.

Basically she has a field tech coming out on 3/17 and due to the area work load, thats the earliest and she was screaming "i want it done tomorrow or im gonna file a lawsuit" (i wanted to say, "ummm did you read the contract and EULA you agreed to?" But didnt) and i just kept saying low & soft, "i understand, i will make it known to the Area Plant Supervisor but its a request and i cant promise anything before 3/17"...i think i said that 20 times.

The point is, my anxiety seems to be lowering or im able to catch it and not let it sneak up on me.

Have no clue whats changed, i didnt do anything different. Maybe i needed to post and talk about it to become aware of it...i dunno.

Today's not over, its lunch hour but im hoping it continues this way!