I Can't Take Everything

[Punky143]

Well it was a nice two days of decreased agitation. But, its back and stronger than ever. I'm tired of the assumption that I have nothing going on in my life, therefore I'm told I'll do this and that. I'm tired of listening to everyone complaining both at work and home. I am ready to tell everyone " I don't care" and "leave me alone." Everyone. But, if that does come out of my mouth, it won't be good. I don't know what to do about it and a part of me knows that I should speak up and can rationalize the situation but other parts don't see it that way. And it sucks. Heading into the weekend like this never works out either because my husband doesn't do well being around me. Urgh.

 

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I can relate.

 

[Canticle]

Yes I hear you and you are not alone...
Thank you for posting this. I have carried a heavy burden of sorrow throughout all my years. It was no easy endeavor to put on a smile and do the dance. I could fake it till I made it on the darkest of days for the gratification of my job, loved ones and society. Yet; I was broke deep down inside and could not feel the smiles or hear the laughs. Thank God for the love within. For I was able to feel that and keep it real. My cycle of sorrow runs it's own corse and chiooses when to play me like a broken string; but, I have learned to let love rule and allow that blessing to soothe my sorrow. I am not sure if I will ever be able to feel safe with the heart smiles and laughs; but, I know that my love within will never fade. I hope that you will hear the laughs and feel the beautiful smiles; but, most importantly, I hope you are blessed with the great abundance of love...

 

[Punky143]

Thank you. I admire how you write and hope one day I too my mind will be more at ease.

 

[havoc2]

Yes I hear you and you are not alone...
Thank you for posting this. I have carried a heavy burden of...

I am so sorry you are feeling so much emotional pain. I, too, struggle to get thru every single day with such deep grief and trauma. It's so hard to fake smiles and laughing. I don't want people to know how incredibly sad I am, but I also get tired of people judging me. They have no idea what it's like to endure these emotions and I hope they never do. My t. has told me I have a huge amount of perseverance and courage, but some days it sure doesn't feel like it.
You are not alone. Keep posting. There are others like me who really do care about you.

 

[Canticle]

I am so sorry you are feeling so much emotional pain. I, too, struggle to get thru every single day with such deep gri...

The greater the light the darker the storm.
Thank God for the beautiful ones that harbor the sorrows within and let love rule. I am forever greatful for that blessing and will respect, love and honor those in need. Thank you for your kindess and sharing the light.

 

[Canticle]

Thank you. I admire how you write and hope one day I too my mind will be more at ease.

I would turn down the night and harbor the sorrows within me. I wish I could make the heart of humanity smile and teach them to let love rule. I bought a ticket to the world and this much I know. We are loved beyound measure and beyound the sorrows. Thank you for sharing the light and shine on beautiful one.