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tiredblu00
I’m so tired. I live everyday in fear and stress and I can’t take it. I’m only here because of my pets. I finally told my sister that her husband molested me as a child and I got zero reaction from her. I kept it a secret because I didn’t want to hurt her and to get nothing from her broke me beyond belief. My parents let him move in to our home when she got pregnant, we have a big age gap. I was 8 and my sister was already 21. And they have lived here ever since. I am 28 now. Once she found out, I begged her to leave him but she won’t. She said she’ll move out but it’s been over a year and anytime she says she’s looking for a place she isnt. I know things aren’t cheap right now but they pay my dad the minimum they can living here and I remember one time my sister was showing me a payment and they had over 30k in one of the bank accounts. I work from home selling stuff on eBay but I don’t make a lot and I don’t even have $50 to my name right now. I want a job so bad but I feel like I have to be home 24/7 because he tried to kick my 8 pound dog for barking at him and I am scared to leave them alone. I feel like I’m in constant fight or flight mode because he comes in and out of the home throughout the day. I’m planning on saving all I can until the end of the year and taking a leap of faith and leaving. I feel terrible because I know it’ll hurt my mom terribly but I don’t know if I have any other choice. Even if I don’t make it out there I don’t think I could do another year here either. I wish things could be different, I want to be at peace in my own home but I have to leave soon