I almost never remember my nightmares, but I know I have them. I wake up (usually having wet the bed) and my heart is beating, and I have the emotional "funk" that comes with feeling like I've been violated in some way. I know my nightmares usually involve me being chased down.
There are some times when I dream, and I think most folks would consider my nightmares to be dreams and my dreams to be nightmares. Bleeding skeletons? I'm okay. Corpses? It's all good. Anonymous threat following me in my car? Panic. Piss the bed. Sweat a few gallons. Wake up with my heart trying to slam its way out of my chest.
When I take my Prazosin, the emotional impact worsens. I talked to my psych, who UPPED my Prazosin dosage. I've become non-compliant with my sleep meds, while I'm still compliant with my other meds. I don't want to go to bed and ruin yet another mattress because the cover for it is too worn out from being washed. I'm tired of having to do laundry every day and getting barked at by my Dad for having to do it.
I just ran into a trigger and I'm really trying not to panic, but it's either sleep and risk a nightmare, or stay up and have to confront this trigger.
There are some times when I dream, and I think most folks would consider my nightmares to be dreams and my dreams to be nightmares. Bleeding skeletons? I'm okay. Corpses? It's all good. Anonymous threat following me in my car? Panic. Piss the bed. Sweat a few gallons. Wake up with my heart trying to slam its way out of my chest.
When I take my Prazosin, the emotional impact worsens. I talked to my psych, who UPPED my Prazosin dosage. I've become non-compliant with my sleep meds, while I'm still compliant with my other meds. I don't want to go to bed and ruin yet another mattress because the cover for it is too worn out from being washed. I'm tired of having to do laundry every day and getting barked at by my Dad for having to do it.
I just ran into a trigger and I'm really trying not to panic, but it's either sleep and risk a nightmare, or stay up and have to confront this trigger.