I feel like I'm at my wits end

[AJ45]

Sorry could you explain what MCT is? Not familiar with that one :)

I do understand this though. I really do.

MCT= mobile crisis team

 

[bellbird]

MCT= mobile crisis team

Do you feel that you are in a crisis situation right now?
If so, and you feel unable to talk to MCT yourself (which would absolutely be me in that situation), are you able to let a friend know is going on and where you are, who can call them for you?

Unfortunately, "in person talk" is what is required in a crisis.
If having someone else talk to them on your behalf is a safe option for you then I would go with that.
If that's not possible and you feel you need to talk to MCT, then you could try writing down what you want to say beforehand? I often do that before regular phone calls.
It's so scary, I know. I've been there myself. But you can do this. Please look after yourself.

 

[AJ45]

Do you feel that you are in a crisis situation right now?
If so, and you feel unable to talk to MCT yourself (which would absolutely be me in that situation), are you able to let a friend know is going on and where you are, who can call them for you?

Unfortunately, "in person talk" is what is required in a crisis.
If having someone else talk to them on your behalf is a safe option for you then I would go with that.
If that's not possible and you feel you need to talk to MCT, then you could try writing down what you want to say beforehand? I often do that before regular phone calls.
It's so scary, I know. I've been there myself. But you can do this. Please look after yourself.

yes but i dont want to be. dont have anyone to call for me. its me myself and i. i feel so trapped.

 

[bellbird]

yes but i dont want to be. dont have anyone to call for me. its me myself and i. i feel so trapped.

Please call them @AJ45 .
You can do this.

Write down how are feeling, take some deep breaths, hug a teddy or a pillow or blanket if that helps, and call MCT.

I know how hard it is. I really do. I've been there myself: trapped, scared, taking a bunch of pills.

But I got through it.
I had to be really really brave. Braver than I ever imagined I could be. Because I needed the crisis team to help me, even though I didn't want them.

And even though I really wanted to die back then, I am so thankful that I am alive today.

It will be ok. Sometimes we have to do really scary things to get ourselves out of really scary places.

 

[AJ45]

Please call them @AJ45 .
You can do this.

Write down how are feeling, take some deep breaths, hug a teddy or a pillow or blanket if that helps, and call MCT.

I know how hard it is. I really do. I've been there myself: trapped, scared, taking a bunch of pills.

But I got through it.
I had to be really really brave. Braver than I ever imagined I could be. Because I needed the crisis team to help me, even though I didn't want them.

And even though I really wanted to die back then, I am so thankful that I am alive today.

It will be ok. Sometimes we have to do really scary things to get ourselves out of really scary places.

i appreciate you telling me because im in the bunch of pills phase and other bad. intellectually know wrong but doesnt make difference. im trying to get courage to call think about what to say....

 

[bellbird]

i appreciate you telling me because im in the bunch of pills phase and other bad. intellectually know wrong but doesnt make difference. im trying to get courage to call think about what to say....

Yeah, it's ok, sometimes we do things even when we know they're wrong. It's because it's the "best" option that our minds can come up with. But that's why we sometimes need other people to let us know that there are "better" options out there.

yea i do the same with the drinking blacking out

im in the bunch of pills phase and other bad

How about writing down what you have been doing- taking a lot of pills (and write down which ones) and drinking until you black out, and the other things.
And that you are feeling like you want to die because things are too hard at the moment.

They won't think you are weak, I promise.
I certainly don't think that you are weak.
I actually think you've done a really brave thing by telling us what's been going on, and for fighting what you have for so long.

 

[bellbird]

I'm sorry @AJ45 but I need to go to sleep now.
I just thought I should let you know so you don't think I've just abandoned you.

But I'm sending lots of virtual hugs (if you want them).

You will get through this.
I never ever thought I'd make it through that stage, but I did, and you will too :hug:

 

[TTC18]

yes but i dont want to be. dont have anyone to call for me. its me myself and i. i feel so trapped.

I've felt that same helpless feeling - and it hurts when you don't have anyone to help. But you have to be your own best friend now.
I called a crisis line, and hated every second of it, but it was necessary, and I got some help. Don't give up on yourself. Be your own supporter - you deserve it.

 

[bellbird]

How are you @AJ45 ?

 

[AJ45]

How are you @AJ45 ?

Hi Bellbird,

Just trying to hang on still in destructive mode, hope to have guts to call MCT tomorrow.

how are you?

<3

 

[bellbird]

Hi Bellbird,

Just trying to hang on still in destructive mode, hope to have guts to call MCT tomorrow.

how are you?

<3

Very glad to hear you're hanging on.
I think you'll surprise yourself with just how brave you can be :hug:

I'm feeling pretty tired. I had one of those days where I was just constantly anxious the whole time.
But I'm cooking some veges for dinner at the moment, and have the jug on for a cup of tea so hopefully that will help me feel a little more calm.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day for both of us :)

 

[AJ45]

Very glad to hear you're hanging on.
I think you'll surprise yourself with just how brave you can be :hug:

I'm feeling pretty tired. I had one of those days where I was just constantly anxious the whole time.
But I'm cooking some veges for dinner at the moment, and have the jug on for a cup of tea so hopefully that will help me feel a little more calm.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day for both of us :)

sounds productive. how was your day?