I Feel Like Im Done Living

[cmg1991]

My entire life has been filled with abuse and sadness. I consider ending it everyday. Help me please??

 

[Lionheart]

Hello and welcome to the forum,

I was once in the same situation that you describe....abuse,sadness,depression seemed to be all I knew and I had suicidal thoughts every day.

I am a survivor of many years of abuse. For me, it took getting professional help to get better, but it did get better!! *I went to the hospital emergency room when I got suicidal and spent 72 hours there to make sure I didn't hurt myself. *(a wise decision I think..."cause I'm still here.);)

I see a therapist for PTSD/Depression and a psychiatrist for medication management on a regular basis and I see a family physician to deal with stress-related illness.

I also read as many books as I can get my hands on about trauma/PTSD. This site is a great source of information and support! There is hope and my suggestion for you is to keep reaching out for help/support.

Wishing you peace,
Lionheart

 

[Belle]

This site might just be a live-saver for you. Because people here understand, even when it hurts and every day seems pointless there are real people who 'know'. (((((HUGS)))))

 

[Sammy]

I second Belle and Lionheart. I fight to survive every day. There are days when I hang on just because I have survived this long. There has to be more.

This site is very helpful and it is full of people who "get it." It has been a lifesaver for me. They may be "just" virtual hugs but I believe the people here would give you a real hug if they could.

Hold on. You are worth it. No matter what has happened to you, the world needs you. (((hugs)))

 

[Srain]

Welcome to the Forum, we are so glad you found us. :)

I go through periods of feeling much like you describe and the best thing I have found is not only the answers to what all was going on with me but the answers to help me deal with and begin moving forward.

Many people here have and continue support me and each other along the way. To find out that I am not alone was a HUGE relief, that my thoughts were part of this disorder and with help can be managed.

Keep posting and reaching out.
Peace and healing thoughts,
Rain

 

[Tinyflame]

Sammy, I feel the same, you are so kind, (((((Sammy)))).
Yes, I do believe we understand.

 

[Petrie]

I just made a profile because I found this post, I am sorry you feel this way, I just want you to know I feel exactly the same right now. Maybe tomorrow will be better I don't know. I literally googled done with living, everything has gone wrong, my abuser came back into my life to blindside me and managed to leave with a full ego yet again, as I remain utterly egoless.

He took my only friends. I am completely alone, he used them to call me "crazy" again. And it's all I can think about, I manage to get through part of the day, but for the past three weeks maybe the past month, I have been non stop crying in the fetal position, I found out my cousin, (like a brother to me, I don't speak to much of my family but him) he is suicidal as well. I tried to tell my friends, because I needed someone, Just need someone to hold me and tell me I am worth something, that what this guy did to me for the past nearly 4 years, that someday I will be normal and someday I will wake up with a smile instead of intensely looking at my bed sheets wondering why I survived another night.

I feel pretty bad right now, l wish I didn't, I have read plenty of things on your mind and controlling your emotions, but I just got knocked down one too many times by this person, they don't even care, they are probably laughing at my "craziness" right now.

I hope you feel better, and even though you feel bad as I do right now finding this post helped me today and seeing everyone's responses.